Wow, a web log all to myself...

Let's see, I bet these things are time coded and everything. But just to be sure.

It's about 10:30 PST on February 19, I'm just sitting here avoiding doing my pysch homework. i really shouldn't, Ms Barber is going to be angry at me...at that's the last thing I want these days. The last week and a bit have been weird and wonderful, I didn't know that someone could feel like this.

Oh, I always wanted to do this, I saw this on www.homestarrunner.com...

Current Status: Tired, but doing alright

Current Anthem: John Mayer's "Come Back to Bed"

anyway, that's the first entry...let's see how it looks

Thanks

Cleric

Mood: how the Fsck do you think I feel?!
ok, it's about 4 in the morning (PST). I can't sleep, I just pounded out a quick play, I have an early morning rehersal and I didn't finish my spanish. Woop-de doo! Tomorrow is going to be so freaking cool! Meh, it won't be that bad, I've had worse on less sleep. Maybe I'll get a haircut after I hit the gym tomorrow...that's a good idea. I'm looking like Shaggy from Scooby-Do these days and I have no idea who I am anymore. I thought I had everything sorted out, nope, I guess I was wrong. Quarter life crisis I suppose, or just a stirring in my soul.(get it? no? ok...)

I wish Bre would listen
I wish Lisa would leave me alone
I wish Hailey would come back

At least it's the weekend and I can put things back together, or maybe watch them fall apart even more. I'm still deciding which one is more fun...

Yep, I'm fsckd

oh note: I'm not really a hacker, just a guy who likes L33t and such things
website of the week: www.megatokyo.com
It's good. I don't really like manga or whatever you call it, but these are nice. Great writing.

weapon of the weak: (lol) I'm back into Glocks now, for a while anyway. So this week it's a Glock 19C
Caliber-9mm
Capacity: 13 round clip
Options: Intergrated laser...blah..blah
Compact version of the Austrian service pistol. Used by plain clothed operatives who...feel..that a large weapon is not needed...sorry, i'm tired and my typing reflects that...Trust me, this'll get better.

Mood: Feeling like a glutton...(should have gone to the gym)

Getting two hours of sleep isn't something I recommend people do often, but man, when I woke up this morning I was so tired I had so much energy...I know that doesn't make sense, but I was on a rush to get to school on time for a 7:30 rehersal...A rehersal I didn't need to be at...meh, better safe than sorry. I crashed after lunch and fell asleep in Law, but still managed to answer some questions from REM sleep. "SaintGrey" didn't come today... I had to be her little errand boy and pick up some stuff from her teachers, and she still didn't come, even after I phoned her like 3 times. I woke her up at 8:30 (she should have been there at 8:20) This whole "Get SaintGrey to school so she can pass and not repeat grade 12" program  is wearing on me. The "program" started in January and she has already used up all the strikes. My threats are pretty empty too. I might need to revamp the idea. She hates school even more than I do and the last thing I want to see is her do it again...

(sigh)  I'm her best friend but sometimes I  think she doesn't take me seriously, like I'm some big joke. She takes the whole world as a joke sometimes. That's not a good thing.
I keep thinking of Hailey pretty much nightly now. Not in the "I'm in love!" sort of way, but in a "wow that was cool" sort of way. Apparently Lisa has been telling her friends about my little...um...adventure at the Mayer concert. Thank god for mutual friends to fill me in on these sort of things. Her comments after the fact just cheapened the whole thing and it really pissed me off(paying for Hailey...spare me the hooker anology please). I still haven't informed her about that...Maybe I should. I do pay too much lip service to her. I'm still rethinking that slut comment, i shouldn't have apologized. Anyway, I'm still getting the trim I promised myself...I hope Patricia is in...she knows how to work a caesar cut like no other.

Ok, until next time I feel ranty...

Cleric

Mood: Dissapointed

Ok, that's not quite accurate, just still mad at "SaintGrey" for not coming to school yesterday. I still don't understand how she expects to pass with 2 failing terms behind her. Maybe she's being blissfully ignorant, or is just avoiding the problem all together. This little "Agent" program I have running for her isn't working. Maybe I should get "Dip" on the case. She may listen to him a bit more than me.

It's been another weird dream week...I don't want to sleep because of these things...Psych has taught me that dreams are a manifestation of the subconscious mind and it is a way of the brain organizing new information. I can see where all the points are coming from. I'm fscked up...

These codenames are kind of fun, I'm not making one for Lisa. Can't think of a good one(Firebert? Terrible), I don't think she deserves one anyway. I have an a55l04d of homework to do this weekend, I should get on it soon. I shouldn't get on "Saint's" case that much, I've been slacking off this term. But I'm still holding a B in all the courses I held a B in last term. I have the natural intelligence that learns as it is taught. I don't really need to study (Maybe for history and Spanish...ugh) Saint on the other hand...studying wouldn't help her in school. She's not stupid by any means, for Godsakes she lived on her own for 4 someodd months. Of course she almost starved to death and her roommate drove her mad...I'm not looking forward to her birthday coming up...After last year, dealing with drunk friends, uninvited drunk strangers and a lung full of a Class C fire extinguisher...what could be worse? Friendship tattoos...yeah, unlike her, my parents still care what I do to my body. They'd have my sack if I did it, plus I'm not a big fan of getting a permeate mark on a part of my body, I've spent my life under the radar and I want to keep that way. So who am I mad at this week?

1. Lisa regarding the Hooker comment( I know it was a joke, but spare me that kind of humor)
2."Saint" for throwing her future at me
3. Myself for not going to the gym(I'll make it up this week) and for letting those two make me mad

Current song: John Mayer's:Split Screen Sadness
Don't worry, I'll be off of the Heavier Things album sooner or later. It's just really good. Might go back to Chris Gains...(thank you Hailey)

That's it for now
Cleric

Mood: Lazy, procrastinating...(sigh)

Just dropped $30 to get my shades fixed, it's worth it, but I still feeling bad parting with that much money. I don't know, I'm just enjoying the nice weather out here...(Oh I need WiFi...)I wish I could actually be outside. I'll get a Laptop before I hit university anyway, already have one lined up, just need to save up the dinero..probably 1600 after taxes. It's worth it though, nice Toshiba with a DVD drive...or maybe a Certified Data(no idea who makes those)...meh, I still have tons of time to think about it, and prices will go down. Saint replied to the email I sent last night,  like I expected it made no sense what so ever and didn't clarify anything.  I think she said she'll TRY to come to school...I think she missed the point altogether. Sure, trying is a good thing, but when it comes to school (just attendence!) it doesn't work. I hope she is there tomorrow so we can have a face to face chat about the current circumstances. but I can't...I have a meeting to attend after lunch about some forensic thing, it'll take the rest of the day, I'll be downtown for that. I still have an Cold War assignment and  a Poetic Devices assignment to match. Psych test on Thurday and a case review on Wednesday for Law. On top of that I have rehersals(with vocal practice in the morning...ugh) I also need to hit the gym...that's easy enough, I just need the time to do it. I can deal with it. I get the morning off tomorrow, but I have to get some paperwork done for the meeting in the afternoon(damn my comitments) But I'm happy to say I'm dealing with my problems much better these day. In the past I would have just quit and curl up with a bottle and want to die, now, I'm doing great...sure, I can't sleep at night anymore, but it's still good! I'm trying to become a born again geek these days...I believe fixing my comp is the first step...I'll get to backing up, formatting and re-install windows in the next few weeks if I have the time(which I don't). I may want to get a digi camera with the laptop...hmmm...record my life...that's pretty cool...anyway, out for now, I'll probably add to this entry later...like now(20:55)

Still haven't got anything done, but I will, that's the thing with me, I'll do it before it is due, but it'll always be somewhat last mintue and I'll be up till' four doing it...and I keep complaining of insomia...hmmm...I don't see how some of these other people can do like a million things a day and still have time for a social life and homework...baka that anyway, maybe they do crack...I don't know, it's not my place in the world to be that kind of person. Damn this soulsearching stuff, can't I just pick a state of being and stay with it? I guess not, give me a few years then. I'm still a confused guy, no idea where my life is headed...but I guess we all go through that stage. My solution to this problem? Upgrade the cOmp and get Unreal Tournement 2K4...good idea...

Current Song: John Mayer's "Back to You"
Because it always does come back to me...I know it comes back me. Doesn't it piss you off that the world isn't as strong as it used to be?

He uses "Piss you off" in his Live shows...Damn it! Where's my Emimem CD? I think I need a change...just kidding

So, Till' we meet again
Cleric

PS: Just so I can remind myself...never, ever, ever, ever get a short haircut again...I'm NOT JOINING THE FSCKING ARMY...(Sigh)..it'll be back to normal in a month anyway...

Mood: Confused and tired...again

(Sigh) Doing all this typing yet no homework is being done...Bobus and Lenny are going to kill me...(don't I have such endearing names for my teachers?) But what else is new? Ol' Muffinhead blew a vein this afternoon,I felt a twinge of guilt, and finished my verbs sheet, still going to fail the term(In spanish of course). I've writing like a mad man these days, but none of is usable in any project...(sigh again) But I guess you write and write until something comes out, still waiting for that to happen. I'm so tired these days it is awful, I can't get anything done...I should see a doctor or something soon. I need to get back on diet and back into the gym...RUN IN THE MORNING!! that is what I have to do..Well it is offical...Bendy gal is jealous of Hailey! Can I pick em or what? Hailey back out here on Friday...YAY! I don't care if she doesn't care(huh?) I just want to see her again. Lisa is pissed off...again..blah..blah..Jeeze these things are getting smaller and smaller...Anyway, vocal rehersal this morning...hell the rest of the day...yep..came home and ate...doughnuts...from Krispy Kremes...I should die soon...my arteries should be clogged with goo...Not much to write...haven't been thinking much..

Current Song-Buck 65's Wicked and Weird...
A little Jonny Cash in the tape deck...Not a care in the world, not a how and a why...
that would feel good right now...

Anyway...The soon to be obese (again)

Cleric...

Today was actually quite nice, I got a lot of work done this morning (for the first time in a long time) I got to sleep in, got in an ok run and an excellent workout, I'm back on all 8 cylinders these days. Relationships are going well and I'm not too stressed out. Again, I think I'm content with myself for the time being, not attached to anyone, just living and enjoying life. "Saint" has done me proud by showing up to class all this week. She might not graduate, but she at least showed me she does have the will to come to school

Again, simple short

No songs...

Cleric