Mood: The "Perma-Blah" mode...

Final Day of regular classes?= June 14
Law Exam?=June 14
Pysch Final?=June 8
History Provincial?=June 28
English Provincial?=June 22
Commensement?=June 29
AfterGrad?=July 2

whoopty-do...How I feel right now...well, not that bad...but I'm quite close...My mom hates that picture...Besides that, the next 2 weeks are going to probably be some of the best and some of the worst times of my exsistence...I applied for the advanced seating thingy at kwantlen...if I get a B in english I am guranteed my course load....yay...now I feel bad that I've been slacking off...It is the weirdest feeling to be so busy, yet have nothing to do...it's a paradox in itself...We watched "Bowling for Columbine" in Pysch today...now I know why Moore strikes up so much controversy...what he says is true, yet no politician wants to hear it...Anyway...enough of that...I just lost my train of thought, so I'm done...
-Cleric

Currently Playing: Phantom....again....

Mood: Lonely, Broken, the basics

"A warrior is nothing without enemies to battle. When the war is over, the only one left to fight is himself"

Think about that one...I'm in one of those philosophical moods again...I just watched "The Cider House Rules" Really good movie...All the actors were rock solid...I do have to admit, the plot was unpredictable...I mean when the boyfriend is a WWII fight pilot doing the Burma Run, you know he's not going to come back the same man he left. I was shocked he came back alive! Homer's heart wasn't weak...the only thing I was sure about was the doctors OD and that Homer would come back to the ophanage. It was a different movie than the one I saw yesterday...Saint wanted to see Raising Helen...It wasn't my kind of movie. But it was ok. I do like Kate Hudson.
I have about 2 weeks left of classes before the finals start...The Psych final has been moved to Thurday. Barber wasn't ready for it to on Tuesday. Luckily for me, I have a little more time to study. I'm not worried about the Law or the English final. History...yeah, I'm scared...but I should do ok. I turned in my volunteer hours on Thursday. I thought I had about 50, which would have given me 2 credits. But once I added them all up, it totalled just over 100. Meaning I get 4 credits! A WHOLE COURSES WORTH OF CREDITS!!! The teacher incharge of it keeps saying that the certificate looks really good on a resume. I'm hunting for a job in the summer, something to keep me occupied...ok, that it

-Cleric

Currently playing: Blue Rodeo's "Rain Down on Me"

Mood: Tired

Second night in a row up past 2...what a record...first History, now Psych...Exam Thurday...I've always liked staying up late...the house is quiet, the computer is free and no one is awake to bother me. It's these peaceful moments that makes life worth living...like walking home from Saint's at 4 in the morning...so quiet you can hear the water running under the sewer drains. It's so late it's early...the way to tell? Birds..once the birds start singing, you know you've been up for too  long. Now I have a slight dilemia...stay up for another 3 hours and get ready to go? or go to bed and be unable to get out of bed? I have to go running tomorrow.I haven't done it in so long. I need the endorphins running through my system...that and I need to get back in shape...I don't think I've been this bad in a long time...it's my diet...it's been the classic Exam Binge Diet...A high sugar, high carb, no exercise diet allows one to study for long periods of time...but it does nothing for the figure....Grad in 25 days...I hate myself...To make things worse...Student Written Festival is the 9th...Teachers are tearing Dennett a new one over having it so late this year...some of us are being stretched beyond our means...Oh, I almost got into a fist fight with Bobus this morning...after a long night compleing a History assignment, I was not in the best of moods when I went to hand it in..I threw it on his desk and walked away. Later on, when I was going to English (Lenny and Bobus have classrooms right beside each other) he was waiting for me...He's been known to push students around (literally) so he got into a pushing fight with me...3 years of football and 2 someodd years of boxing training...yeah, I had to fight the instinct to either spear tackle him or cold cock him in the face...the last thing I wanted to do is put a teacher in the ICU a month before Grad...talk about stumbling at the finish line...ok, I'm done...

-Cleric

Mood: Doing alright

We had 10 minutes of fame today, it really nice to see the acting grads talk about how acting has changed or affected them. Me of all people. I did grade 9 drama, but I was so scared to be on stage and talk infront of people. i had a awful stutter until grade 10. I didn't take drama 10...Grade 10 was a bad year anyway, taking it probably would have saved me alot of pain. I had to take acting 11 for the fine art credit. I was thrown into a huge roll, at first it was hard and I couldn't handle it. I tried to quit, no one would let me. So I sucked it in and kept going. I brought the house down. From there I was bitten by the acting bug. I've written a few plays, acting in my fair share of rolls. I've been a bitter paraplegic, a figment of someone's imagination, Ebinizier Scrooge, a jock , a Bear, a Prince. I've been another student from my school...don't ask, that play was weird...I've danced in a kilt and I've done countless improv things. I've been through crying rehearsals, I've cried myself, held other people while they cried, fought thought hardship and triumphed in victory...I've done so many things in these short years and I have to say I'm so proud to know all these talented people...I will miss them all...
The 10 minutes of fame really show each person's own style. James and Katie whipped out some numbers from their favourite musicals( with Ben in a tubetop....) I almost cried during "Another Suitcase in Another Hall". James and Katie also "passed the torch"(a bunch of matches) to Ben and Jackie...the next generation of acting...it's another tradition we have....They recived it from a group of grads last year...now they pass it on...
Sim just looked back on his long career, Graeme did the same and ended with his version of The New Amsterdams "Goodbye". Carrie and Kristin did their...wacky goofy thing...like they always do(they got Graeme playing base in a tanktop). Annie somehow did an entire standup routine on shoes and men. Sheena and Torri said what they learned in acting...
"If you are a talented, hardworking actor..you will be punished by being put in a bear suit."(that could have been to Graeme...or me...could have been both of us...)
"If you are a girl under 12 years old, you must be careful of Sim backstage."
"When the going gets tough, the tough give up and Katie R finishes it."
"Katie R is God"
"Making acronyms from titles it never a good idea....SOM, EOTSWOTM..."
"If you are in a play with James and/or Katie you automatically a rotating set piece" Dumbwife, Clue, On Air...
"Organization is a wonderful fanastasy."
There were more of course, but those ones stand out the most..others...the average person wouldn't get... Dana and Selina just talked about life and acting...and me? what did I do? I decided, since I was raise on musicals, I sang "Stars" from Les Mis and my own verison of "All I ask of you" from the Phantom....both parts...I also said a bit of the opener from this blog...It was good...I was the first one on so my audience was a little lacking( it was during lunch!) I didn't care. I'm really sad that I'm leaving...but as they say, no one really leaves....Grads ALWAYS come back...it's tradition...I'm coming back to lead the improv team again...maybe I can teach those kids something...
So tomorrow is the last day of classes...We're getting yearbooks and everything....and Bobus is giving a unit final on Japan, China, Middle East, India and Africa...so that's going to be the best way to end history....Law exam is on Monday...then I came back on the 16th for a practice History provincial....come back again on the 22th and 28th for the English and History final respectively...other than that, I'm riding tall in my final days of high school....so I'll end this blog the same way I ended my 10 Minutes of Fame....
"Goodnight, Farewell and Godbless"

-Cleric
Currently Playing: Maroon 5's "Must Get Out"

Mood: Doing alright

Well, I got my yearbook today....signed some, got my signed...I never knew I had so many grade 9/10 stalkers..it was weird....they were so excited...like I was Justin Timberlake or something...well maybe not Justin Timberlake...anyway...it was weird....enough said I got most of the Senior acting students to sign it...except James...damn, his might be worth something someday....It was a very peaceful day...until the history exam of course...I bombed it...EVERYONE bombed it...It was so hard...I just got a hair cut...3 weeks to grad...ok I'm done...

-Cleric

Currently Playing: The New Amsterdam's "GoodBye"
keeps  me at ease..sings us both to sleep...don't have to say goodbye...goodbye"
Seaquam Acting: Never Forget

Mood: I'm alright
How can you have .6 of an exam anyway?

I had my law final today, it wasn't that hard. I have the day off tomorrow, go back on Wenesday for the practice History provincial. I'm not worried about English, as I have said many times before, but History...It is so much information...1919-1991...that's a lot of time to cover. But it is mostly mulitple choice...the written question? Ha, that's going to be 110% pure bullsh1t...Anyway, after all that...Grad and all...I'm probably heading up to Whistler for a week...great place...but before then I have to register for courses out at KWat...I've got them all picked out, so that's good...I think I've had a course list ready since March...of last year...so again...not terribly worried about that...i just can't leave for Whistler until I get that done..unless I want to fill it out in some internet cafe in the village...that wouldn't be that bad...but all my personal info is at home...so that's makes it easier...After Whistler? Meh, the Boys want to go camping...it came to me yesterday that my friends know more about computers than camping...so that's going to be interesting...A planned Buffy-verse marathon with Saint, Jen and Mog...that's going to be the shit...Jenny has most of the Buffy/Angel DVD and the rest of them are taped...
Saint is still dealing with the loss of Dip...it was her fault and know she sees that...she's been around trying to find a replacement...("a Rogers guy? The manager of EB Games?") She's hopeful...She helped out at a girl guide camp last weekend to get her mind off things...When she said she was doing I laughed my head off...Number 1-Saint HATES camping...her allergies just kill her out there and 2...The thought of her mentoring little girls on the future...just scares me...I mean she hardly has her own future sorted out...and she HATES kids just as much as I do...we made a vow never to have kids...but she's says I'm weak and I'll have them with the first woman that asks...No...I'm not...I don't want to raise another Pyro...I mean...if my kid turns out like my brother...I'd freak...I don't want to take that chance...I always thought(writers POV) that any relationship I was in, one of the major stumbling blocks would be the issue of kids... I just don't want them, what if she does? I've penned a short story dealing with things like that...it sucks...I'm doing more writing as of late...I really need to fine tune my work..it's gotten sloppy...so used to writing plays I suppose...my old stuff wasn't that good either...Grade 9 delusions of granduer..all my charaters where super cool, super well armed and always got the girl...when I look back on that I vomit...one thing I always did, was give each character a history and a weakness...that is the first step in character development...Lucas did it with his Stars Wars characters (If III sucks...I don't know what I'm going to do) He made sure they all came from somewhere...I think I'm finally over my leaving high school blahs..now I'm just happy it's mostly over...

Anyway I'm done...plans for the weekend? Study for english...and I bet I'll be sitting outside a 7-11 watching Saint eat beef jerky...again...we need to get out...
-Cleric

Here's something new:
Quote of the Week(ish): "Here's what I'm thinking...""Nothing good ever started with that phrase."
 Here's something I haven't done for a while:
Weapon of the Week(weak): 
The M79 40mm Grenade Launcher
This is a single shot, break open 40mm grenade laucher that was first issued in the US during Vietnam..during that time, it gained several nicknames..."The Blooper" "The Thumper" "The Charlie Blooper" It fires all the 40mm grenade rounds, like the High Explosive, Signal flares and buckshot...It was replaced by the M203...which attaches to an M16 series rifle...but oddly enough it is now being used in Iraq again. Soldiers dealing with "booby traps" find it easier to aim then the M203/M16 combo...Basically...the most badass single shot shotgun out there...

Currently Playing: Remy Zero's "Perfect Memory"
I thought it was weird that the Prom Finale of Smallville was on last week...this song is in it...so I'll see if I can get it played at Grad...wouldn't that be freaky?!

Mood: Tired, hot,

God it's hot tonight...The practice History provincial this morning sucked...I think I'm going ot have to study a bit more...Pyro is really being a bitch...such a bitch...no codenames...Jamie isn't listening to anyone right now...stubburn little punk...doesn't think he needs to study for his exams. He is not that bright, so all the studying in the world wouldn't help him...I'm in such a bad mood this week and it's only Wenesday...maybe I realized I have nothing better to do until exam are over...I'm living inside my mind and it's going to kill me...I should go to school just for interaction...even if I have no exams to write...I just want Grad to come so I can move on..Oddly enough I keep thinking someone is going to die before Grad....if they die before Grad it's tragic...if they die after...it's less tragic...I think that's a little odd...I guess that's it...I'm just dealing with my inadequacies...again...you think I'd get over that...fuck it...it's a bad day...sorry

Mood: Doing ok

"Keep your friends close, and your allies closer"
"I have trouble keeping anyone close."
"Except me?"
"You're closer than others."
The two friends part ways on the warm starry night...

I guess that's what it's like with me and Saint...
oh here's something else...

" I used to be a Go Kart!"

Here's an old favourite

"Just pretend we're all short and stupid!"

"A wiseman seeks the path in the clouds with the flowers and this is just trying to sound Zen.."

"This is the only song I've EVER heard that has Pavlov's Dog and Salavate..."

"So I'm lying here, just staring at the ceiling tiles, and I'm thinking about what to think about."

"Queen of the Harpies!....QUEEN OF THE HARPIES!!!!....QUEEN OF THE HARPIES!!!!...ok I'm done."

"I don't know, I'd need an elephant rifle to break up with her..."

Where is my gun?
To blast away these doubts
To blast away the pain

"What a poet."
"When you’re in this line a work for a long time, the little things keep you sane."

Ok, I'm done...I just want to see those again...