Mood: Better..not like that means anything

Miller has pretty much phoned all day...I'm going to solve the problem on Monday...I can't take this...I hope he'll get what I'm going to say...it's just gone on too long...

Ok, that's done

Saint and I rented Resivour Dogs and Desperado last night...Resivour was really really good...But we watch Desperado first...that was the best idea we had all night because compared to the other two "El Mariachi" flims...Desperado wasn't as good...Tarantinto and Busecmi died too soon in Desperado...Gun play was sloppy and the romance was weird..I perferred the kind Mariachi of the first movie, or the emotionally numb one of the third...this goofy guy with the violence problem isn't as cool...Rocket lauching guitar cases aren't as cool as one might think...Neither are machine gun ones....next time fellas'...bring some real guns to a fight....but what can you do? Both Cheech Marin and Danny Trejo play characters in this movie and in "Once Upon a Time in Mexico"...now, that's pretty cool...they both get their asses handed to them in both films...

Now, I could go on for days about Resivour Dogs...but I'm not going to...It was a good movie...Tarintino knows how to make a solid film...I knew Orange was the rat...didn't know he was a UC cop though...Beretta 950 and a snub 38 and a Smith Wesson auto...It was a Busechmi overload last night...but at least he lived though R Dogs...Taranitino....not so much...ok, I'm done...I have no energy right now...

-Cleric

Currently Playing: lostprofits "Last Train Home"

Mood: Good

Well, I was just feeling really bummed out and depressed about this lonliness thing....
then, Jenny comes on...we talk...I leave....then 10 minutes later I realize that I'm no longer all bummed out...
I don't know...this is a really dumb story...I just felt like adding it...

Mood: Fluish

Just a note, I do like short comments...I think purple takes the cake in that respect, thanks.


Well, I just found a Tito and Tarantula song called Cucarachas Enojades (means Angry Cockroaches) I don't know why,  I just liked the title. I'd hate to meet an angry cockroach...

After a day of chilling to very mello music...I have a feeling tomorrow is going to be a hard charger kind of day...Why? Well, Nirvana got top spot on MMM Top 40 Albums of  the past 25 years with Nevermind. 2nd was Michael Jackson with Thriller and U2 with Joshua Tree was at 3...I felt good that I knew the bands with the top 3...some of them I had no idea...Being sick, I've watched alot more TV than I usually do...so I managed to tune into those Back In: things on Much More Music...Like "Back in: 89"...and they would do all the stuff from 89....I don't think I can concieve when the music I listen to becomes dated...I've said that before....blah...

I think I am getting better....I better get better...Midterm week is coming up...I had a debate with someone over which was worse? Being sick while studying for a test? or being sick while taking a test? Both of them are bad..but it's really bad when your paper is dripping with bodily fluids...and no one like a cougher during a test...or a sneezer...Some people have such a violent sneeze it makes me jump out of my seat...especially older guys....I had a teacher that when he sneezed, sounded like he was screaming....trying handling that during a math exam....

A note: Do not use subsonic ammunition in an intergrated suppressed HK weapon like the SD series...you can use it on Mp5 with a detechable suppressor, but not in the SD series...I've been looking up that fact for weeks....

I think Miller has phoned 5 or 6 times today. I haven't been up to answer it...but I just don't care anymore...This has gone on for too long. I've grown up, he hasn't...It's time to tell him...I can't be his friend anymore...too hard on me...I know that sounds really cold, harsh and self centered...but you haven't met the guy. Think of this way....Miller is here - and I'm                            way                                           over                                                    here in terms of maturity
I guess that's how I can show it...I know it's not his fault...but I still can't handle it.  Well, I'm done for now...I think I'm going to go get changed and drag my sick ass to get a coffee...

-Cleric

Currently Playing: Nirvana's "Something in the Way"

Mood: Take a  guess...

Well, my first Comp Sci assignment is on a disk that isn't reading...I had to go to the bookstore and pickup a couple of fresh disks, a few folders and a disk caddy...not letting all the elements screw with my assignments again. So yeah, I'm pretty pissed off right now, but I did submit the files to the prof. through the network.  I'll have to talk to her later if I can't get this figured out in 3 hours. I mean for a comp sci class, you have to assume the machine is no perfect and absolute. Things have problems that are beyond the users control. Not like Lichimo is a Nazi or anything, I think she'll understand. I was going to print these off at home on the weekend but it complelety slipped my mind. Still fighting with the flu. I'm pretty much winning, but it is staging a counter offensive. I saw Ladder 49 with Saint on Friday...ran into Fraiser from Comp Sci and Crim...first time I saw him I thought it actually wasn't him...I mean, what are the chances...Saint stated that she was not my girlfriend, just my best friend...something we have to go through alot...I mean, Christmas last year, when Saint stayed the week...20 relatives got to meet...ugh... my new "girlfriend" I don't think they got the message yet...to this day...
I just realized she has office hours right now, and I'm going to go fix it now!

See ya later...

So now is later-14:39
I never thought I'd be in this room more than I have to, but right now, I'm sitting in on the class before my Comp Sci class at 4. Yeah, so if I actually do stay for the whole time, I'll be in here for about 5 hours. So I'm going to tune out during my class...I'm getting most of the work done now...sweet...
So I fixed my problem. I had to redo some small parts and I printed everything. Right now, there is this guy who used to make fun of me when I was in grade 8 and he was in grade 9 or whatever. Now, he's giving me that look...the one that says..."Hey I think I know you" it's the funniest thing ever. No one recognizes me...it's cool

So Ladder 49...my dad would love this movie, he works with firefighters anyway...but I'm going to ruin it right now just so I can tell this story...anyway, the part where joaquin phonix is trapped and stuff...I mean, it's suppose to be all emotional and such...but I had to go to the washroom so bad I actually wanted him to die quicker...ok, well I'm going to get some more work done...probably skip Greek tonight and go straight home...or get a coffee...probably a coffee...

-Cleric

Currently Podding: Oasis "Wonderwall" This could have been my grad song...

Mood: Wanting to Die...

Just so you know, this course is required for the program I am in...so I can't drop out. I feel bad about English right now. I've missed two of the small hand in assignments. It won't affect my grade that much, it's only 10%. As long as I am there for the inclass essays. Which WAS NOT today. I was all charged and ready to go but it was not so...I didn't read Stephen Crane's "Open Boat" for the reading quiz. I bluffed and bullshitted through it. Didn't do too well...probably better than "Goodman Brown" though.

 I ran into Kirsten Yip and Lauren H( it's like 3 sylibils...can't spell it...Blonde, Acting Lauren) in the cafe today. We had a nice little chat. I guess I do know some decent people from Seaquam.

Just a note, good looking women with glasses are at least 10x as hot. Maybe it's just me...Amy Acker as Fred on "Angel"? Oh yeah...the girl sitting kitty corner from me in comp sci? Definintly. She has cute ears too...great for kissing...

Sorry...Sometimes I hate being a romantic with no one to be romantic with...an introverted romantic...oh boy...that's messed up. Like the introverted extrovert...make sense to me. All dressed up and nowhere to do...well, I think I just fell asleep...ooops...I drooled...oh well...I'm so tired right now...I'll do a maxim wakemeup routine...

-Cleric

Mood: Better

Well, apparently I can find anything online. Lyrics, songs...a picture of someone who's half asian half indo...yeah, I'm Saint's super search engine. I make Google fly. So what happened today? Well, REAL university kicked in today...2 Crim midterms...1 I knew about...the other one...I'm just glad I finished the first one early...I mean, the Crim 1101 actually asked what an "asshole" is in the Police Cultual sense of the word. Anyway, I felt pretty shakey on both exams...which is a good thing for me...I felt I did well on the Math 10 final, I ended up going to summer school...so if I ever think an exam was easy...BAD SIGN...nice thing about having a final in a 3 hour course...you can get out in an hour...so tomorrow...probably after Crim 1107, I'll split and have Sushi with Saint...a sushi wednesday of sorts...It's nice to have good people to hang with...I should phone up Mramor and Sohota, see how those two are doing...I think I need a little mindless fun with the boyz...ha, I used a z...

Jenny was a friend of mind? Sorry, new Killers song...fitting? as in ending the friendship with Jenny? Yeah, ok...
After watching Resevor Dogs...and seeing Mr. Orange's Undercover carry method...Beretta 950 in the ankle holster and a snub .38 Special in the pocket...makes me rethink the idea of a shoulder holster on UC characters...Kydex holsters seem to be cool too...meh...again, this has been, a gun nut moment

Not much to say really...Told Miller he was scaring Saint and Saint doesn't like him...and stop phoning...period...at home, on campus....just stop...didn't phase him...oh well...that's it....

Currently Playing: The Killers' "Jenny was a Friend of Mine"
yeah, yeah, I know....never going to happen..that whole "Never Again" crap didn't really work now, did it?

Mood: I'll explain...

 I get up at the usual time, get out the door with a bit of breakfast in me and get to the bus stop feeling pretty good...except for the fact Rogers Video called Monday and said we didn't put Resevour Dogs back in the case...now, my dad got that phone call..and I find out about it today...I know, I know...I don't even ask questions like that anymore...it's not worth the mental angusish. So after that, I'm waiting at the bus stop, feeling ok. I have a good jacket on, I have my Ipod and everything is going pretty good. So the bus arrives about 20 minutes late. Which is odd. Yesterday I heard another driver say he was 20 minutes late the day I didn't take the bus in the morning. I guess traffic is getting worse. Not even that bothers me. I have a half hour window to get to class. I arrive with about 10 minutes to spare (and yes, for some weird reason I did run to class...didn't have to) So that doesn't bug me. When Rideout handed back the assignment I didn't do...that didn't bug me. We all go through class, get a very informative lesson on all things as they usually are and then I leave. Now, one would think my day would be pretty sweet right now. I'm done for the day, Crim 1100 is canceled because Doc Welsh is doing some stats work up at SFU. I'm looking at a very nice 4 day weekend. Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday for Thanksgiving, which I've managed to get Saint a seat at. So everything is looking so good. But right now, I feel like absoloute garbage. My cold just flaired up about 5 seconds ago. I'm freezing cold despite the fact I'm still wearing my very warm jacket. I should have no reason for feeling this bad, I'm ontop of the world right now. But maybe, just maybe it was what was taught in class today...this proves that I can never take a philosophy class...but I finally was taught the meaning of exsistentalism...which basically means you live your life because you want to. You can kill yourself at anytime you want, but you choose to live. You can, as Rideout put it "Spin the wheel of your .38 and pull the trigger at anytime." No, I did not say it is a cylinder and not a wheel... but that's beside the point. The only reason one responsible for everything you do is yourself. In a natutralistic point of view...there is no luck, no higher power, no plan. It is you, the trees, the dirt and gravity. Maybe deep in the back of my complicated mind, this is getting to me. I've never been a big believer in fate or religion at all for that matter. But if I'm here and I'm here for no reason, it does sort of cheapen what I do everyday. Then I thought, if I can be the only one that determines my stardard of living, what the hell am I doing living the way I do now? A somewhat lonely somewhat lazy college student. I don't know. I just don't know.

So one thing I'm thankful for this year? I'm not taking philosophy...because if I begin to think about life anymore than I do now....it's not going to be pretty. Another thing? Saint...duh, of course...I mean, if I have nothing to do, she phones up or I phone up and we hang. Boom, like that, very little or no planning at all. I'm thankful for my B in English 12. I'm thankful for the small gestures...the taps, the caresses, the kisses, the interwinded fingers...yeah, that one came out better in my note book...and technally none of that has happened...it's just scenes and ideas... I'm thankful for my parents who are letting me get this kick ass education...and not being completely weird about it..but why would they? I'm thankful for the Ipod...I know...that one is really materialistic...but this thing is pretty much my constant compainion on campus. It's either on my belt and in my ear, or plugged into the comp and just there. It doesn't complain, it doesn't whine(except that one dream where it was crying), it just plays music. I'm thankful for the ablity to be thankful...I mean, I'm glad I'm not a whining little punk like my brother. But I'm thankful for him too...if he wasn't there, there would be nothing to compare me to...yeah...just kidding...But this is going to be an interesting day...the weather has turned very fall like and I really like that. None of this warm summer garbage...I'm a cold weather person, rather be freezing cold than boiling hot...go figure...I just submitted because this is becomming a pretty good little entry...I'm thankful for Jenny...for not...um... completely shutting me out...but just enough to be cute(what? shy is cute...)...and me bring me down at times...yeah...I'm thankful Bender is dead...what? She's not?...ok....nevermind...the hate is just a burning ember right now...but it's there...and that's all that matters. I know I should be saying this in December, but 2004 has been really good to me....like more than most years...but then if you're looking at it from a naturalistic point of view, I made 2004 good. It was my Grad year afterall...sorry...I'm doing that so I can get ready for the english exam next week...

Well this is odd...this is usually the time I'd go to the lounge, get a coffee and some baked good and read Crim notes...but I have no need to...I've done the Crim homework...for like all the classes...Comp Sci is not looking very good right now either....I mean, I have until the monday after thanksgiving to finish 3 things, 2 of them I'm almost done...I'm too sick to work out...still...jamie has to stop blowing his nose everywhere...now the entire internet knows....I don't think that would bug him as much as I want it to. Part of me just wants to pick up a Kwat Hoodie (been meaning to do that for months...) clean out my locker and go home...curl up in bed....but I'm not...I'm just going to sit here and blog for as long as my mind can come up with things to talk about.

I think I got through to Miller...it's been two days and not a single phone call..I think I may have gone a wee bit overboard in saying that Saint HATES Miller...hate is a strong word...but she's creeped out by him...but telling Miller Saint is scared of him...that gives him more power....in this way, Saint has the most power...I don't know why I call her saint, i mean that's the nickname she wants and it's so much easier to type Bre...like, it's almost half the letters...but as long as I'm cleric...she's be saint...she came up with hers first...at that time, I was Badlander or something awful shit like that...but after watching Equilibrium (Cleric and Saint are both religous positions and Cleric is a rank in Equilibruim) and after hearing Saint's oddy deep explaination of her email...(SaintGrey....) Grey is not good (white) or evil (black) it's in the middle...so I became GreyCleric...both capital, one word...I think it's pretty cool...except for that whole everquest thing...I mean, I do know about Grey magic in the educational sense of it...but that's it...that's why it's not THE Grey Cleric....I bet now all the ads uptop are going to be about EverQuest now...the odd thing was...about a week ago, it was promoting some same sex dating line...I really wondered what I wrote that was deemed that gay...If you got back to February, it's about John Mayer tickers...and now, it's about Poe and Crane...I wonder what it'll be now? God only knows...or he doesn't, in the naturalitic sense God doesn't exist...yeah, ok, I'll stop...my wrists are killing me...so I'll end it here...

Currently Podding: Blue Rodeo's "Trust Yourself"