Is it me? Or is it you?
Do you want me say it? I will, in an instant.
I think we'd be good for each other...
You'd be good for me....I'll be good for you. Right?
I just need someone. I need you
You in?

What the hell was that? Bullshit, bullshit, bullshit.
"You in?" What kind of line was that?
I don't know how to start relationships. Do they just start like "poof" and if so, how do they poof!?
I hate this...socially sheltered...fuck me, fuck this
I want it, I want it bad....
Makes a heroin addiction look sad
Mine's easy to get, harder to use.
All the Gin Blossom tunes in the world aren't going to help
" I didn't ask and they shouldn't have told me. At first, I laugh but it's sinking in fast"
"Is there a line that I could write that sad enough to make you cry?
"I'm like a broken record that you can play, repeating, as if it matters everything I want to say."
"You know it might not be that bad, you were the best I [never] had"
"If I hadn't blown the whole thing months ago, I might not be alone"
"drink enough of anything, to make this girl feel new again."
"I've waited for so long, for something only god knows, wrong.
Fuck Fuck Fuck

Anyway, Boring day...
Crim 1101...that I was going to skip...was cancelled!
I guess she can't teach with me not being there...yeah, right...
I'm going to One Acts tonight, sans Jamie or Bre...solo...
I'm not going to leave solo...sorry, that was wrong of me....
I'm just torn up and screwed up...
And everything looks like poetry, not on purpose...
I'm just hitting the enter key
So I'm done...just a little messed up...as I was afraid to sleep last night so I didn't give in until 3...
So I'm tired...I need sleep... I need Jenny, I need to stop

-Cleric

Mood: blah

I don't think Crompton can make Criminal Law any worse...I mean, i'm not even going to talk about this one...it offended my sensibillity.

I really hate this one a day classes. It takes a lot more to get out of bed because the idea of "What's the Point?" floats through my head. I mean, I did get out of bed of today...but part of me really wanted to stay in bed and sleep those 2 hours I gave up to Crompton. Still no paper mark...thank god...I'm terrifed. She'll see right through my bullshit and crush me like a bug. I still havent emailed HUey reguarding the class yesterday...I should to appear the keener!
Ok, this is my last school related one: We get our presentation marks back for Crim 1100 tomorrow...and I hope I do ok..I mean, I took a big chance doing Powerpoint...we'll see...I can't do that bad...

As I mentioned before, I'm hanging with Bre on Friday...I hope we actually end up seeing a movie...not...something else. I talked to Brittany R this morning and she gave me the spanish inquizition on the plays last night. Angela asked me pretty much the same thing last night...about what I thought about all the plays I've seen so far. I'm liking what I see...Johann and Kyle are the two new guys stepping up and apparently they are both in a band. So they are the Graemes of the New Generation without his seniority. I don't think there is a new "me"...that being someone who was unsure of acting and then tossed into a large role. I guess I'm one of a kind then...people like me (the way I used to be) don't even try acting...

Anyway, tonight is the third and final night and I have to be there or face the punishment of death from the Brit R and Elizabeth...whoopie...I just hope Jenny's there...

-Cleric

Mood: ok

I do like Thursdays, not going to lie to you about that one. I'm going to make this one quick as I can as I'm on the upstairs computers and these tend to have a lot of people waiting for them and I don't want to waste their time by blogging.

I realized this morning that in the big scheme of things, this has been a very easy semester. I've had no assignments...just papers, exams and presentations. I have a feeling the days of daily questions and garbage of the like are a thing of the past.

I still haven't been sleeping well. This ca be attributed to the increase coffee consumtion and the scary dreams. A scary dream is not a nightmare. A nightmare relies on things that terrify most people. Death, descruction etc. A scary dream is a dream that has subject manner the dreamer may not wish to think about or deal with at the time, and usually have some kind of profound message or theme. A nightmare will leave you in the morning screaming, a scary dream will leave you depressed and upset.

I've been budgeting out my christmas shopping list...I'm sitting on 200 and that's going 4 ways...4?
Jamie
Jenny
Bre
???
ok, maybe only three...or the third one can be left for gifts for general people. I'm still thinking on that one. Oh and I'm not spending 50 on that spoiled brat I call a sibling. The one issue with Jenny is delivery. The last thing I want to do is to recreate the scenerio with Bender last year as played out in Esquires Coffee house, over an insanely large coffee and some uncomfortable moments. So I have to figure out a way...drop by her house? (with Bre in tow)
"I was in the neighborhood...I have to take a cab and two buses to get in the neighborhood though" 

I wonder if Lauren T's comment last night even registered with her...no, I'm betting on no..too bad...I always think of the witty comments after the fact
"Are you two going out?"
"no" turns to Jenny "Do you want to?"
Imagine how she would have reacted...I can't...

So what I got from english today...the english final is no longer within the exam timetable and is next thursday. I guess that's good, meaning I don't have to come back on a cold december day to write it. That only leaves Law, Crim 1100 and Comp Sci...not in that order. I do have to admit, I'm enjoying the December weather..only after 8. When your at the bus stop 10 after 7, you don't enjoy anything. Maybe the feeling in your appendages when they return. I need to find a pair of gloves...

10:13, I have to go...personal problems have arisen...mostly over coffee and stomach pains...I'll try to get back on ASAP- or PDQ

PDQ stands for Pretty Damn Quick at 10:20

Anyway, that's over...Favourite Christmas Movies:
Top...I'll see how many I think of...in no real order
1. "It's a Wonderful Life"
Come on...classic, I saw in acting 3 years in a row and fell in love with it. People seem to scoff at it due to the whole black and white thing, but I love it. That's where all those "I wish I was never born" parodies come from

2. "A Muppet Christmas Carol"
I loved this movie way before I was in a version of the Christmas Carol...but when I was cast...all I could think of was...I'm going to be like Michael Caine!!! I love the Muppets. Hell I wanted to be a puppeteer in grade 7...somehow, that turned into law enforcement...Could be a control thing

3. "Reindeer Games"
Ok, before you say anthing...yes, this is a Ben Afflick movie and no, I don't care. Charlize Theron is in it...and that's always good. Gary Sinese plays the most scumbag guy I've seen in movie in a long time. I like Sinese, just not as Mack in CSI: New York...Grissom in the man, that will never change. Anyway, this is a christmas movie...and it's ok...

4. um...That's pretty much it...I added a four as I like to end even...I thought it would be a cool topic.

So..um order...
1. Muppet Christmas Carol
2. It's a Wonderful Life
3. Reindeer Games

(sigh) I have nothing better to say. One of those Thursday layover entries I guess...

Ethereal voice, quiet and shy
Sweet, dark brunette
Swirling pools of chestnut peace interwoven with porcelain perfection
Wall of our creation stop progress
The distance is great
If only fifteen minutes
The longing
For each heart
Too Great

Anyway, I'm calling it a day...I got nothing else to do...

-Cleric

Mood: ok

Word from the other Crim 1107 class said Crompton actually stomped out of the class half an early after someone voiced an opinion she didn't like. I wish I had done that...would have made the class tolerable. Boring day..got a ride home with Eric...that's about it.

just adding an entry...