Mood: Alright

I keep taking other people's little survey things because I frankly have nothing to say...sorry Rawr

1.) What did you do in 2004 that you have never done before?
Graduated High school...Only do that once
Started College...probably could do that more than once
Wore a bear suit...only wanted to do that once

2.) What countries did you visit?
Didn't even leave the fucking province...whoopie

3.) What date from 2004 will be etched onto your memory and why?
February 14th 2004 from 5pm-1am: That was some good 7-11 coffee...no, seriously...Good company, good music, good weather(I like the rain) and good coffee. That even pretty much changed the way I view things. It's the reason why I'm here...on 20six that is

4.) What was the biggest achievement of the year?
Very recent...getting 77% on a law paper I thought was a piece of shit...and the teacher doesn't give As!

5.)What was the biggest failure?
Leaving out the entire Bender Saga...it was not telling Jenny how I feel...I just dropped hints like a stupid child

6.) What was the best thing you bought?
Ipod?

7.) What did you get really really really really excited about?
Nothing...I don't get THAT excited

8.) Did you fall in love in 2004?
For a little bit, yeah. But I don't call it love anymore....strong feelings...It's only love when both parties consent

9.) What was the best book you read?
I want to say "Fight Club"...but my time for recreational reading was cut short...so it was Criminology: A Canadian Perspective by Rick Linden...the only textbook I read cover to cover...not shitting you

10.) What one thing would have made your year imeasurably more satisfying?
Being with someone...yes, in THAT sense

11.) Tell us a valuable lesson you learned in 2004
Always Kiss the Girl like you mean it...Always

12.) Quote a song that sums up your year
"I'm staring to see, maybe it's got nothing to do with me"-John Mayer's Daughters

So there you go, another survey thing...first of the new year...I'm probably going to change the music quote one...but I should keep it...

That's it...I wish to all and yours a happy new year. May 2005 bring you good luck, forture and romance...because if it doesn't...you can start up a blog and bitch about it...

Edit: Top 5 Blog Entries
 1)December 6th-This was a long morning entry that I just enjoyed writing
2)August 30th-This one was just random...but it was the first (and only) not to use the triple period
3)August 5th-One of the longest trains of thought I have ever had...it's a beauty..it also mentions a very cool night
4) April 29th-Despite being my bros B-day, it was a grand day because I dropped spanish...yes!
5)February 20th-The first REAL entry...with the infamous "I Wish" statement that pretty much set the way the rest of the year would go...

-Cleric

Mood: Angry

He could have bothered us tomorrow...I would have been fine with it...he could have bothered us anytime...just not then...what the hell has crawled up my dad's ass? Apparently it's a family thing...my dad will hit you when you are down and least expecting it without even knowing it. It's so sad. This is why I have deemed 2005 the Year of Anger. 2004 was the year of landmarks. I hope I can work this anger into a weight training program. I'm tired of all this crap in my life. I really am. I have to stop obsessing over things I'll never have. I need to stop taking crap from all the people in my life. I am a person, not a doormat. I have a spine. I'm tired of trying to play to everyone. I don't care if the whole world doesn't like me. If all the rumors hold true, and all those people from my past begin to enter my present...then I'm going to have to find an outlet for this rage. Weight training...right...good. I should pick up a month pass so I can go whenever I feel like it. I have a feeling that'll be a lot.

This is going to be a different year for me...I can feel it in my bones...This is kind of a mission statements kind of thing...

-Cleric

Mood: Ok

So, did some shopping today and picked up some much needed items:
1)Jan 2005 Maxim-The best Maxim EVER!
2) Ipod Remote with earbuds(didn't need those, but still)
3) Notebooks(360pgs, 5 dividers...I'm going to use my writing one for CRWR)
4) Pencils(HB...for scantrons and such...which I haven't had yet)

I have a bookstore melee to attend in the morning. But I can't sleep right now. Nothing new. I'm going to run tomorrow and start the program. I think tomorrow is a good a day as any. Jamie downloaded Steam and Gunbound over the weekend. He spent the entire day on the computer with his friends. When I came on it later that night, I got a trojan warning. After fighting the bugger for the better part of the day with various programs, I've come to decision to format it this weekend. Whatever...it was due for a wipe anyway.

I have a feeling I'm not alone. I can't be the only person like this. I have a feeling a bunch of guys are just a generation of lonely college boys. Kyle, Hardy, Mike, Omar..etc, I think we're all in the same boat. We all deal with it in different ways. But I think we all have the same root problem: We're too normal and we're scared of that. Hence, the lonliness. I can't speak for any of the other guys. I've just grouped them in to my theory, for the sake of social science.

It's around that time when I believe Bre is dead...I mean she rides a rough transit route and no matter what she thinks, she's an easy target for a motivated offender. I should talk to her about target harding when(if) I get the chance. Now Jenny...no clue. Maybe she's busy...I don't have any grandious theories about her. I'm putting things with her on hold...I can't do anything right now anyway. Even though, she did say(without me suggesting it) that Bre and I should come over sometime...yeah, reading too much into it(being friendly?). But you never know...we're playing a shitty version of the signals game...when no one wins.

I was going to mention it yesterday, but didn't..I watched a couple movies on tv that didn't sit with me very well...technically one movie. 10 minutes into "A Clockwork Orange" on Showcase, I gave up. I couldn't handle it. Sure, they can beat the bum up. They can beat up other thugs...but start raping people? No, I'm done. I did manage to sit through Hannabal on CTV one night. The guy in the chair (Mason?) really freaked me out and swore I knew who it was...I should have gone with gut instinct...who else plays roles that weird, that well? Gary Oldman. That whole brain thing with Ray Liotta made me uncomfortable, but I got over it. I should have gone to bed, but I flicked channels and came upon a paid infomercial for a local laser eye clinic...I decided to watch. Yeah, bad idea. They have to put a dye marker on your eye...they hold them open with some metal things...glad I didn't see that in Clockwork Orange. Now that pushed me over the edge and into full freaked out mode. I can't stand anything done to the eyes...it just drive me up the wall. Even though contacts have lowered my eye sensitivity and I can now poke around there like no ones business...having metal clamps pry them open and having someone put a purple dye ring on it? I hope I can stomach to get the proceedure done in a couple years...

New Semester at Kwantlen

I'm entering this one with mixed feelings. On one side, I have a fall semester under my belt with some awful teachers and I think I can handle anything else they can throw. I'm no longer a high school student in college...I'm a college student trying to go to university. The courseload? I kept it, and it looks like fun (to me) Filled with social science goodness...Sociology(something new), Psychology(Thanks Ms. Barber...it's the same course, different book!) Criminal Law(if I can get a B with Crompton...anything is possible) Criminal Statisitcs(First "math" course in 3 years) Creative Writing (I have come home) No Comp Sci, no real english...this is going to be a hoot!

On the flip side...and this is just being stupid and paranoid. But people from high school, who took the fall off for whatever reason, are all coming back. Now, for a fact,  I have no clue how many (if any) will be coming. Nor do I know who. But some people, just make me sick thinking of them. Plus side...Jessica George said in my yearbook she'd be at Kwantlen in January...I think that's the one one I have a good source on. I don't know why I brought her up...she was still too new even in grade 12 to get a reading on, but she's leaning towards "good people".

I'm being paranoid about this. I bet when I go there tomorrow and begin classes, I won't know a soul. Either that, or they'll be the people I did Crim 1100/1101/1107 with as 1208/1207 are a popular choice for people packing that prereq, it's the only place to go really...so that'll be cool. At least I know some people. bad news? Psych and Sociology are first years with no prereq and those are labelled as "red courses" where I could run into some bad company(CRWR doesn't count because who in their right mind, besides me, would take that?). I'll make the best of it. As long as the Skankasaurous doesn't show up, I'm in the green. Yes, I'll call her that one last time... I said before I wouldn't. But whenever I bring her up, I'm reminded of an awful time in my life and that's pisses me right off. But that whole incident (hardly that) while seeing Closer showed that I just don't care about her...and that he BF can't be killed no matter what he does...no...I used to be "friends" with that guy too...God, how things change.

For practically sake, I'm not using my giant duffel to transport my gym gear. I think my high school backpack will suffice. I just don't like bring that monster on the bus with my messenger bag too. Which, right now is really heavy...it's throwing off my back.

Goals for this year:
1) Learn to read people better
2) Get cut, loose the gut (That's bloody clever)
4) Learn to play cards(Poker, Hearts and asshole)
3) Get some concrete, logical story work done

ok, there we go...I'll do another one if I can get comp access on campus...one down side with no comp sci, I can't do a monday evening blog entry...

-Cleric

PS: My neighbor got back from england a couple weeks ago(she's a native anyway) and she says blogging is big there...she even knew this site! Cool...! I guess...

2nd Best Joke Ever(to me): What's the Difference Between a Drunk and a Stoner?
A drunk will run a stop sign while a stoner waits for it to turn green

Mood: Alright

343.78 on books...5 books...thank God for Mike's trade deal...if I can find him. I wrote down his cell number on the second day of class, but I don't think it ever made the transition to an entry on my phone...

The past, at arms length...everything is code green and things cannot be better on this crisp winter day. I guess I can get back into the swing of things pretty quick. Still thinking of that run today...I want to drag Jamie along..meaning I have to do it later in the day. Which isn't a bad idea...

Now, last night...I don't know why she did it...but my mom moved my contact case and put the case upsidedown. Now this is a special case with a base that neturalizes the harsh chemical that cleans them so I can put them in my eyes. Well, I should never take that for granted...I'm fucking blind...and reduced to glasses for like the first time in 4 weeks. Fuck me...it burned for the longest time...I had to use half a bottle of contact Visine to get it out and I still can't see out of my right eye...if I had put it in all the way...man...what a rough day...I fought the book melee...3rd one in line up...5th one out...

Ok, I take back all that at arms lengths crap..and if Mike doesn't answer the messenger in the next 10 seconds I'm running home...I told you...if I'm paranoid, I'm usually right...

The Skanasaurus just walked in to G building

...thank god I blend in...oh and Mike is in the library...(sigh)...I'm not going anywhere...
Wow...and I think I'm just ranting about crazy shit that's never going to happen..and low and behold...maybe rumors do have some weight to them. Alot of weight...So I'm not actually paranoid...just oddly perceptive...hmmmmmmmm

Kidding...

ok, I need to focus now...I was just so happy that I'm not insane...this time..I think I'll hold out on the coffee for obvious reasons. I couldn't sleep a wink last night...so I'm probably going to go home in a while and have a nap...mmmmm...nap...then run...what a day....I wonder..do I have the will to bring home at least 60lbs worth of books? Maybe..I'm tempted to toy with my fate and go to the cafe...but it is a little early for that...

I think I'm done for now...sorry to everyone for the randomness...

"I'm not paranoid, just perceptive"

-Cleric