God, WORST PAPER EVER....



I really shouldn't have had Saint over. Not because she got in the way of doing
the paper, I still started at the time I planned to, but she kept questioning
my system. This system relies on my confidence and belief in my writing abilities.
Right now, not so much. I might actually break 1200 words on this one. I was
sort by at least 200 on the Billy Budd paper and that turned out ok. This is
pure shit. Saint might actually have reason to question my methods. I can't be
the only college student in existence to do this though....



Adding to my "Worst Sequels Ever" list (Up there with Crow Wicked
Prayer)...American Psycho 2...now, I'm going to ruin the first one for
you...Apparently, all of Bateman's kills were in his MIND!!!...So to my surprise,
the sequel makes them real...and the main character was the only one to survive
Bateman's rampage...Her babysitter was one of the victims...(sigh)...ontop of
that, the little girl is the one that kills Bateman...(sigh)....This movie
sucks on it own...you could have found some other way to make the character
played by Mila Kunis(who's voice is too cute to be a killer) and cut out every
single Bateman reference...Saint and I turned it off in the first 15 minutes.
Oh, it makes all Crim majors out to be psychopaths...fun...we then switched
over to Jackie Brown, a Tarantino movie. Drew says it's his favourite...which
is odd as I don't consider it a full Tarantino movie...that would be like
considering "From Dusk til Dawn" a Tarantino movie...it was good and
it has some cute parts...some not so cute parts....(sigh)...random much...Oh
and please, don't ask me why Saint and I went out and got coffees and rented
movies on a Wednesday night before I have a paper due. No, I will not repeat my
Sin City story.....Saint is having fun at her cosmetic make up school...she's
meeting new people...like a Semi Nerdy Prairie girl with short
hair...(sigh)...I want to add more, but I think I should at least log in a
couple hours of sleep before class...



-Cleric

Mood:---



Meh...



In an effort from head to cut down hours, I'm not working Saturday. I'm not
mad, I just get worried whenever work calls. Of course, I do care when the
assume I'm trying to cheat the system...I returned
Jackie Brown and (that other movie) as I got Hitchhikers Guide and the Family
Guy movie...personally, I wish I got the sunday off as that's closing...it's
rough getting up the next morning for class anyway...



Speaking of class(nice segway), I have a week + a day left...of course that
includes 2 laws...Argh...I will be glad when this sem ends...



Hung with Saint today and as we walked home a group of 4 guys were coming up
the street, we assumed a defensive position fearing a brawl...of course it
turned out to be four guys we both know well...Sigh...this is Delta after
all...



Man, I'm tired...I'll write more...I'll be putting up Christmas lights
tomorrow...and filing...



More at 2:00...because I can...



I'm going to let my mind wonder, walk the world a while. I can't explain some
things in my life. That whole brunette glasses angle which has been ongoing for
time now and just recently re-enforced. Did you know the college has a drop box
with an ominous message on the front. It doesn't even fit standard envelopes
for papers. Dani had to fold hers for her second year english course. I cringe
at the thought, second year English courses. Of course I'll probably have to
take one sooner or later. When I get my act together. I think it's weird, I
keep telling people I know to drop by work and whenever I give them a date it's
either wrong or I'm not there. Like this weekend...(sigh) I'll say it one more
time, I don't mind that I get Saturday off. I don't mind work. Yeah, Fallout
Boy is getting annoying. Personally they should pick shorter titles for their
songs. "The Lawyers made us change the title so we wouldn't get
sued"...Come on...put some thought into these things, just a bit. I have
to say that I'm losing some of my will, my resolve and my patience with
everything. Even Saint tonight, gawh. She didn't want to get The Family Guy
movie as she has seen it(Half of it). Both Pyro and I wanted to see it. I told
her she lost credibility for picking American Psycho 2. I have to take some of
the blame because I let her get it. She acting quite childish while we were all
watching the Family Guy movie...she was alright during Hitchhikers Guide, but somedays
I just don't want to be someone she goes to when she's mad at her BF. Which
seems to be quite often. Oh, she thought the Babel Fish was cute. Anything that
must wiggle inside your ear to work can't be that cute. At least I finally
understand that damned translation site.



Zooey and Emily do look alike. I'm more into Zooey as Emily is just sad on
Bones...That whole show is garbage. The writing is poor, the science fact is
wonky and don't get me started on Post Angel Boreanaz...I'm still standing by
the claim that the two leads of the Buffyverse Shows were the weakest actors.
Every now and then (especially in season 7) SMG had a good moment, but she was
easily out shone by pretty much everybody else...Speaking of Angel, Dani was a
former fan who stopped midway through 3 and asked me how 4 and 5 turned out.
Actually was more interested in that Cordy/Connor Sex arc. She hates them both.
I told her it lasted for a while but stopped in season 5 due to that whole coma
thing(which I also tied to the 100th ep) I tried not to spoil season 5 as
that's a mighty season to spoil. I can't even mention Gunn, Fred or Wes. Well,
Maybe Gunn...I have more attachment to Wes and especially Fred. The more I
watch of 3/4, the more I fully understand Wes' transition from Buffy season 3
Princess Margaret to the Badass of Angel season 4/5...come on, the man shoots
his own dad...(well, not really)...Giles is still my overall favourite
Buffyverse character and could very well be my favourite Whedonverse character
is the BDHs keep dying. If you haven't the seen the movie by now, you don't
deserve special treatment. There is that one point where you think everyone is
going to die. Simon should have just stayed down...but then the ending with
Kaylee wouldn't have been that cool. Don't ask me why we started talking about
it, god knows what we nerds can do, but Dani and I somehow started a
conversation about crazy fanfics and that somehow lead to the Firefly ones
where Mal/Simon were a couple...I can't remember how it actually started. I
think it had something to do with her Cyclops/Wolverine coffee mug and her want
for them to be gay together or something. (gah)...I probably said something
like even if they both were gay, they wouldn't be each others type...you have
to remember this conversation probably took place before or after we talked
about genocides or murders or rail disasters. Also don't ask, there was an
angel one when Angel/Wes become a couple. So, is this stuff made by the women
who are wishful thinkers? Or the same sex community who are wishful thinkers?
Either way, fanfics are scary...I tend to avoid them. There was that misguided
"Fastlane" project and that MASH/Bureau 13 crossover that looked
really good on paper but flopped when I realized I knew nothing about Mulcahy
nor how he would respond to being a white mage. I knew I came up with one more
but I can't remember it. It probably sucked.



 I had to explain character development to my mom who laughed at me when a
character liked "movies and coffee". All my characters are little
parts of me and people I know. That's how Dennett taught it...that's how
Friessen taught it. Combine that with the Lucas/Mann "Character
History" theory and you can have really cool characters. That's my
problem: I have all these excellent characters and locations and gear(the
things I know about Pursuit vehicles and guns are scary) to play around with
but I have no idea how to do it. Omar is the opposite; he has all these great
ideas but weak sauce characters that come from nowhere...or heaven. He's been
on the Last Son of God plotline just to get the Catholics mad at him. He wants
to write a fictional novel that will get every organized religion against him.
I'll tell you thought, it's cool when you see the inspiration for your
characters doing things they should be doing the day after you wrote it...Don't
get it? Yeah, neither do I....I can remember my grade 10 year freaking out as a
new female teacher bared a superficial resemblance to a character I just
developed that summer. It became a non-issue later, but that first week it was
really really cool...



But character development is something I take pride in. They all have their
little quirks and weaknesses and flaws. I know it's grammatically incorrect,
but two "ands" sounds good when you read it out loud. It's how people
talk. I just have to work out a way to better understand senior
characters...most of my good ones are 35-45...(don't yell at me, I'm 19 and
naive...) Senior characters tend to be wiser and parentally(a combination term
for motherly and fatherly)...



The new Kanye West video is cool, Heard em' Say with Adam Levine of Maroon 5.



That it, I think I've got most of it out...and now you have to read it (not
really...)





-Cleric

Mood:



The first lie is free, the other ones you have to pay for...it's just good
business. I wish I could explain but that would be breach of contract, breach
of ethics and a breach of an external confidentiality agreement...



James Blunt music is good...his love is pure...he saw an angel, that's for
sure. He just has really freaky eyebrows and he stared so hard at the camera on
Saturday Night Live. Blunt would always raise his eyebrows at the end of a high
line. So he was doing alot of that. That Dane Cook guy isn't that bad either.
It's been said that Bill Hader is underused...so true.



Maybe I'm paranoid or being right...but if they cut one shift, what's to stop
them from cutting me altogether? Of course that would be a waste of 16 training
hours...give or take. Did I mention I have a week and a day left? Two classes
with Dani, like that means anything. One of those so-called "special
people" that will influence certain things...maybe...no...We should just
go out for coffee and rant about stuff. She seems that type. Chalk up another
of those girls that I'll probably never see again. There seem to be so many. I
should look into that. Apparently I can flirt(AutoFlirt as well), but anything
beyond that is nothing...



I think my dad needs drastic neurochemical treatment as soon as possible.



It just came to me watching a season seven Buffy episode and watching 4 Firefly
episodes today: Do you know how ironic it is for Nathan Fillion to be playing a
preacher(a shepard in some parts) the accent seems to be the same. Looking back
at it all, Book is so a former Operative...War Stories screams former
operative. Why would they introduce such a character in Serenity if it didn't
explain where Book came from. Whedon will never tell...bastard. Speaking of all
that, I saw a trailer for "The Unit"...a little upset about that
watching Amy Acker on Angel as I'm typing this.



My fascination with brunettes is an interesting phenomenon...certain ones, the
so-called "gorgeous" ones...nothing. It's
the...unassuming..."mousey"...and "cute" ones that get my
motor going. I want to use examples....but I would just keep mention pornstars
for the first one. Josie Maran doesn't really fit into that, but that's ok. Am
I using "unassuming" right? Mousey doesn't mean docile...Saint seem to
think I like that when describing her new friend at her cosmetic make-up
course. It's those girls most people wouldn't notice first glance but the
second or third one you really see it...Oh My God...if only they could get
Fred/Willow AND Kaylee onto one episode...just Willow and Fred is
awesome...ooer, Whedon does write to archetypes...



Kick Ass Girl: Buffy/Illyria /River+Zoe

Smart Guy: Giles/Wes/Simon

Funny Guy: Dander/Lorne/Wash

Muscle Guy: Spike/Gunn+Spike/Jayne

Funny/Smart/Nice Girl: Willow/Fred/Kaylee



Haven't I done that chart before? Seriously, I need some new material. I have
that habit of talking with people and saying the same thing and then noticing
it right after...



CHANT IT!!! WES WES WES WES WES WES WES WES WES WES WES WES WES WES WES WES WES
WES WES WES WES WES...YAY! Who would have thought when you first watched season
3 Buffy that he would become what he became...



Is there a hockey game on tomorrow? I should really check into that to see how
slow my night is going to be. I'm not a Canucks fan(only playoff time) but
whatever makes my life easier. Was Faith put in jail for murdering the mayor's
aid in season 3?



Blogging while watching Whedon shows is distracting...I'm done...



-Cleric

Mood:



Good News: Got Paid(being paid on a monday is weird)

Bad News: Next two weeks= two shifts/I have to go to law

the first one isn't really bad news, it just means I won't get paid that much
coming into Christmas time. At least I'll have more time for
"shopping" with the cash monies I do have.



Other than that, today hasn't been so bad. We had the final reading quiz in
english today and the "final" is pending on thursday. Not too worried
as the format is the same as the last one and it is only worth 10%. I'll still
going to "study"(I have to put it in quotes) as I hope to come out
"even" this semester.



All of the "finals" this week are 10%: Policing/Psych/English/Anthro
in that order. Of course, knowing Pitsula, she's the only one that has a real
final(One being in the final schedule) and of course, it has to be 30%. That
one I'm going to "study" for that one. I ran into Froc across the
courtyard this morning and he asked "How goes the battle?" I
responded "Living it day to day." That pretty much sums up how this
semester has been.



I know that is doesn't really count as stress cleaning, but I cleaned off my
desktop last night and organized my files. I have a policy of keeping all PDF
files attached to papers on the desktop until I get the paper back. I do hold
most profs to a high standard and expect major assignments back within a week
of the date due. Very rarely do I get such a response. Rideout usually will as
will Froc. All the others are taking their sweet time. There is a fine line
between "taking care" and being downright lazy.



More about work last night, just because. Quite a few people I knew came on in,
Miller's sister/Wilson and Godfrey/ and Mark...haven't seen him since grad.
Personally, I could have done without seeing him to. It's my job though; I
can't have any opinions about the people I serve. I just serve them to the best
of my abilities even if they are drunk and/or stupid. I can't believe a woman
balled me out for asking to see ID when she used a credit card. That's not even
our policy, its Visa/MasterCard or whatever she was using. (Sigh) I handled her
well and apologized despite not needing to. I think I saw "Little Shop of
Horrors" 4 times last night. That brings my grand total up to 8. Drew
loves that movie. It's pretty good (that's my standard line when people ask
about most movies) I do like musicals as you may or may not know. You should by
now if you've been hanging on for any length of time.



Don't ask me why, but I restarted my MSN Space Blog, posted an entry then
shutdown the blog(again.) I kept the entry though. I might make reference to it
every now and then. It was solid and introspective as hell. I may even reuse
some of the lines. Like the one about "shoegazing." Have you heard
about this? Death Cab is classified as such a band. It's called shoegazing due
to the habit of the band members to look down at their shoes or control peddles
or whatever in deep focus while playing, hence the name.



Yeah, I'm done. I should try to put myself back together before law. That will
probably involve espresso shots and banging my fists against a wall.



One final note: "Literature classes are the Blanche Dubois of the college infrastructure"
according to Rideout...so true...

Mood:



Recalibrated Timetable: 4 days left+ 1 exam...



10/15 ain't bad on case briefs. Of course, it isn't good either. God knows how
all the other half assed, half baked, retarded assignments I've done will come
out in the end. The most worrisome is the Anthro paper, followed by the
English, then law and psych...It's all based on weights and ethical standing.



Watching season...You know, I have know idea what season it actually is. Could
be 4. Ok it is 4...3 is the intro of Fred...4 is the Angelus/Jasmine arc and
5th is the Avengers takeover of Wolfram and Hart...I've used this line before:
"Cordy just gave birth to Zoe and I'm scared." I've also reconsidered
my stance on the favourite Buffverse characters...Come on, I have to pick Wes.
Complex evolution, the smart one, gets Fred in the end and likes guns (doesn't
care too much for Gunn at some points)...Giles is still the Watcher Master, but
Wes is the best example of Whedon writing. He just has the best death scene
too. If you haven't seen that and you're interested, why are you reading this
blog? I seem to spoil every damn thing.



Coffee Intake:

1 half cup in the morning

1 12oz during break in English

1 16oz before law

2 espresso shots before law.



The emotion is anger. The emotion is guilt. The emotion is pain and lost and
lust.



You'd think as we get closer to Christmas I'd get MORE SHIFTS, not less. Meh,
what do I know? What a time to cut hours though. I just hope I get to work
Christmas. Hell, I'd work the entire week 24/7 if it means I can get out of the
house. The family unit tends to fall apart at Christmas and it's gotten
progressively worse as the years past. I don't want to be around for this one.
I can't comprehend it getting worse.



Whoopie, More MTDNA and other exciting biology crap in Anthro tomorrow. If I
wanted bio, I'd would have taken that as my science credit instead of Anthro.



Wow could I get anymore boring? I think if I did I would implode into some sort
of boredom black hole



I'm spinning in...No survivors...



-Cleric

Mood:---



3 Days+1 Exam



I don't know whether or not to be happy about a "whopping" B+ on my
Anthro paper. At least I didn't fail nor get tagged for plagiarism.... I hope
Froc gives back the Psych papers tomorrow, Pitsula emails the Law mark and
Rideout gives back the english papers on thursday. Then I can stop worrying. At
least until the next disaster rears it's ugly head.



I do have to admit, the guest speaker in Anthro was interesting. Pretty much
the lead RCMP Forensic Artist. He said he had a BFA and his dad told him to get
a real job, so he joined the Mounties. He different than all the other cops
I've met, even he admits that others don't really see him as a cop. Despite
getting the paper back(it took half an hour) Sabine gave us the review sheet
for the final. Yeah, it's a great thing, but come on...I would have rather had
it last week. Most are in agreement.



3 Days left in my Semester of Hell. I prefer "of" as oppose to
"from"...sad thing is, it could get really bad over the next three
days...



Man, aren't you all tired of my bitching? Seriously, when this is over I'll
have something interesting and witty to say.



-Cleric

Mood:---



2 MORE CLASSES+1 Exam



Jeeze, if 3 days couldn't pass any slower. 70 clean on the Psych Paper.
Meh...that's still a really good effort to mark ratio: 0:70...English and Law
paper pending. (sigh) Pat said she would email the marks by today. Nope, of
course not.



I don't think tomorrow can come fast enough, neither can friday.



I guess I have some primal urge to be one with nature as I can't get enough of
Survivorman on the OLN. Add that to the Dick Prohicke thing a while back.
Simple. That's all I want. This just isn't a simple world anymore(was it ever?)
In this convoluted world of papers, deadlines and exams...it's amazing that I
don't study more. God, If I did I would be even more stressed out. It's one
less thing to worry about. See? There are some people that have to knuckle down
and study their asses off to make the grade. I sneeze and I can break B/B+ in
most circumstances...seriously, I have really intelligent sneezes. My coughs
graduated with honors. I kid you not. Yes, somethings I should work harder at:
English papers, more reading comprehension and possibly note printing from the
AORs. I won't say I'll do it next semester, because I won't. Let's not go
fooling ourselves now.



Funny, I expect Saint to phone as wenesday seems to be the day we hang now. I
guess not tonight after the debacle on monday...Frankly I don't even know what
happened anymore. Like everything, the truth lies somewhere in the middle
between concrete fact and abstract fiction. This one, more fiction. As a 15+
person brawl on the streets of Delta would attract some media attention. I
don't care who you are and how late it is. Despite popular belief, I would get
knee deep into a brawl(Especially if Saint was involved) I can phone the police
once my knuckles are bloody...I would NOT leave the area to call the police.
That's just stupid. That's just unprofessional and
untactical...(cough)...yeah...untactical is such a word. It is now...Rwar!



Man, I think I might take up drinking after this semester. I had once thought
about taking up smoking, but that is just foolish and stupid on so many levels.
People of my generation shouldn't smoke. We know the truth and are just
willfully blind to the whole thing. Plus, it wouldn't make me
"cooler" anyway. Nothing would. Personality +occupation +peer group.
It would take a cooler factor of a Million Plus 1 to get me to register above
-1 on the scale. I am a nerd. I work with nerds. I hang with nerds...enough
said...now badass...I could work with that...



Done...



-Cleric