I just hope the Koreans don't settle the Nuclear thing before I hand in my paper or it's all gone to hell.

I know I've said it before, but this paper is the worst paper I've ever written and probably every will write. I'm not fluent in the language of politics and all these "hardliners" and their mixed matched policies are bugging me out. Still, 300 words + research in 3 hours isn't bad. I'll pick up the pace as we get close to six.

I could probably take Poli Sci again if I had too. It wouldn't make my parents too happy but I'm dealing with some shit and said shit can't be dealt with while I'm taking classes. Work fits in well with shit. However, when the shit is regarding a crisis of conscious about my abilities to perform at a post secondary level aren't alleviated when I'm staring down the barrel of a Poli Sci paper and a screenplay. I'll say it one more time: If I don't like something it takes a lot for me to do it. This is why I want a full course load of 3rd Year Psych/Socio related Crim courses. Mmmmm.

Do you think it's a good idea or a bad idea to allow Elizabeth to date Mark? Considering I know Elizabeth's dating history intimately and I'm well aware of Mark's escapades from others, I'll hold off on the decision. No, I don't have Mark's email and IT IS suspicious to ask. At least Elizabeth doesn't lie to me: she's interested in Mark.

Oh and if push comes to shove: Staci can be the middleperson on this one.

Saint is going to get a crack out of that. Even I chuckle at Elizabeth rebounding with Mark. Saint will split a seam when I tell her. She'll probably say how "movie" like it is.

At least I know who Elizabeth is rebounding with and I can sit back and laugh and laugh.

Still working on Dani. Again, I'm in no hurry. Oh and no: She didn't show up to The Firm today. That would have been hilarious if she did. Actually, I would have no idea how to respond to such an action. Good thing she didn't then.

Really, I have no need for a relationship right now. It would be nice, but not mandatory to my existence (like it was back in the day) Right now I just need me and caffeine. I'll be alright(boy, doesn't that sound familiar?)

Ok, I'm not alright but it's not due to anything relationship related. I'm losing faith in my academic abilities. I am an academic and losing faith in that skill set is worrisome. I do take great pride in being "smart", "intelligent" and somewhat "well read." If you look at my grades (well, Poli Sci at least) you wouldn't see that. Nope. I'm just lazy. Laziness is the biggest threat to academics.

Sad, but true.

Oh and for all you blog hardliners (Whatever that means):

16 Days and Counting. It'll be a Thursday. Maybe I'll go out for dinner, go for a stroll and possibly watch a good movie (“Back to the Future” or “Vanilla Sky” perhaps?). Or I could go for the morning angle: Get a coffee and Mira hente. I haven't done that in a while. Stats won't be that bad unless we have a test. Even then I don't think I'd mind.

Funny, I've only finished one Full Throttle and I'm almost done.

600+ of 1000

I'm also watching an SGA ep on Youtube. That one with those mist things. John has a nice place doesn't he? A man needs lots of space....I don’t like Ferris wheels. I suppose I’d learn to.

Still working on it. The paper, life...and everything else.

-Cleric

You know, 10 pages sounds long but my first scene was really short(scene wise) but still took two pages. Go figure. I thought writing a 120+ screenplay was hard. Still, I'm no Charlie Kaufman or Alenjandro Amenábar(he wrote "Abre Los Ojos". "Vanilla Sky" is the English version of that film and not the other way around.)

I like the short fiction format. One day, I'll write a novel. Maybe after I get beaten up by campers who refuse to turn down their music. Of course, dreams that occur when you're sick always inspire movies. Who knows? They say everyone has one good story in them.

Of course everything I've done up to now: not "good" by any means.

Stats was Stats. Omar and I came to a realization:

If he wasn't my friend, I'd kill him.

Being my best guy though, that's not likely unless he hits me with a damned Warthog again. Saint is my best friend overall. Plus my best friend who is a girl(but not my girlfriend, that distinction we've made clear over the years.) Omar is my best friend who is a guy follow closely behind by the rest of the guys. I consider Steve and Ryan a single unit because I rarely(if ever) hang out with just one of them. Shawn is bringing up the rear(he's been upgraded. Last time we met, most of what he said seemed...credible.) Miller has been dropped for reasons I care not to go into. People just grow up and split apart. It happens.

Fellow Firm Personnel are considered my "Friends." However that's only in the context of work. Outside work, we're pretty good but not like my "real" friends. Britany is still on my top 3 people list. She's #2 again after a 10 month span of being #3 for reasons I care not to go into. That one you can figure out on your own.

Where this is going(nowhere) but Staci, Britany, Saint and I (in order I told/order I met them that day) have started a task force* to "save" Mark. Unanimously we've agreed Mark simply cannot go out with Elizabeth. This is all well and good to save Mark but in the same breath I realize how the 3 of them(well, not Saint...She didn't put up with her one bit) put up with Elizabeth just because I was dating her. Wow. I was impressed. Megan did too. I did give Megan a colour in a erased entry, but that didn't seem right. If I talk about Laura, she'll probably be yellow just to complete the set. It is an honorary and doesn't have the same meaning as all the others(maybe except Saint) Laura likes Heroes and Grey’s so we always talk about that. That colour looks like "Pale Goldenrod" *pause for House related laughter*

*pause over*

To avoid having to cast a George Lucas character if(IF) my screenplay gets made, I'll do an homage and have him speaking in hologram(in a hooded cloak) when everyone in the room says "What is thy bidding my master." It is a little cheesy, but I'm trying to work cheese into this one without coming off as stupid. I'm not doing a very good job.

Looking back on it: I should have said in my CRWR Bio that Tarantino worked in a video store. That fact clinched my job and it should be noted.

Speaking of CRWR prof: She's doing a reading out in Richmond in a couple weeks that I should see. #1: Because I want to meet her. #2 Because we have to do a review on a reading. Two birds with one stone. I hate that figure of speech because it's about killing animals. It'll have to do.

Do you know how many people included a car crash in their character's bio? A lot. Even me! Except it was part of my character and not how he died.

A decision I must make over the weekend: Stand and Fight and Lose? Or Give up and Let Go and Lose? Which is more honorable?

We'll have to see.

I saw the McCollum Girl in the corridor today. No reason. I just wanted a blue colour in this entry. Ironically, she was still wearing the top that gave her this colour. Like Catlyn and her "trademark" hoodie. Britany has this one undershirt that's this colour. Saint just likes pink, I rarely see her wear it. Maybe those crazy "bunnyshoes" back in the day. Staci is "The Firm" Colour.

Dani's eyes are green.

"Melissa's" eyes are green.

(They are slightly different shades)

I'd explain the rest, but since I rarely write about them they're not about to come up anytime soon. Well, Amy is the colour of Goth Blood.

I like colours and my mind associates different things with colours. For some reason the number 5 was always blue and 10 was orange.

Kristen and I(no colour yet) will have something to talk about next time I'm in for coffee: Supernatural today was a "Jo" Heavy Episode and she knows how much I like Jo. Who doesn't? Alona Tal is awesome! Even more awesome with big knives (Yes, it is cliché...Girls + Weapons=Turn On but I am that simple....don't kid yourselves. We are all slaves to our basic instincts) Pretty simple episode though: Winchesters investigate and deal with a big baddie spewing ectoplasm ("We're dealing with the Stay Puff marshmallow man!") Jo tags along and they fight it up and down Vancouver posing as Philadelphia....

Done? Done...I have to get some writing done.

-Cleric

I have to stop picking up people's weekend shifts. I know it was a big thing for Ed to have today(being Saturday, I only register a "tomorrow" if I sleep. So I don't register that many tomorrows) off so he could spend Friday night drinking for his friends birthday. If Ed can do one thing well: That's drinking.

At least it's a little shift. 5-10:30 is nothing to complain about. I just would like to have a day off every now and then. A day without school or work. Those don't happen.

I probably won't have to take Tuesday off. I've been to quite a few readings and none have lasted 3 hours. Richmond isn't that far out of the way either.

Screenplay is coming along fine.

I've also realized I'm no good at hiding my emotions. Britany read the "suicidal" vibe way too quickly when she met me in Starbucks before my shift. Thank goodness she didn't have the frame of reference to categorize it. She called it a very generic "Something is wrong" vibe.

Fitting.

Something IS wrong.

Of course, once I'm working I'm "happy." Not an overbearing fake happy. Just a "happy to be here type of happy". No Ma'am, that's called "I’m too tired to do anything else but be happy" Happy.

Customers can be fun.

I have a very empathic memory that triggers the episodic memory. I got a bad vibe from a older woman that was in the store. That vibe translated into a trigger that keyed that one crazy Donnie Darko Teacher woman that yelled at Staci for no apparent reason. Well not "no reason" just rational people shouldn't respond like that. In the back of my mind I thought about calling the customer on the fact she said "I won't return as long as "she's" working here." Staci was there...and she came back. She didn't remember. CSRs never forget. Ever.  

To combat that wrong feeling I bought Atlantis season 1. I just watched Siege Pt2 (for the Hewlett commentary) Rising(for the Joe commentary) and Hide and Seek(For the Teyla, Beckett and Weir commentary) It's a temporary measure. Those garage door supports won't hold my weight anyway.

Did I just say that out loud?  

It is a full on reversion. Cleric Operating Systems Version 1.0

That's never a good sign. I was at least at the 10.3 patch earlier on in the year.

I'm also thinking I some neurological disease that's affecting my sentence structure both verbally and written. I don't think I made a lick of sense today and this entry isn't looking too promising.

I'm going to bed.

-Cleric 

Maybe suicidal tendencies are contagious. We all felt that way at work today. Maybe it was the weather, all the customers and the general unpleasantness involved with working a Saturday no matter how long you are in.  

I can fault my mum on her logic on this one: There is no difference between "I'm tired of all this" and "I think I'm tired of all of this."

You think! Therefore you are!  That's the basis of philosophy!

So if I think I'm something it is quite possible I might be that something!

I say "quite possible" because if I think I'm a chicken chances are I might not be one.

It's as simple as that.

I rented Cars. It was good. Another solid Pixar movie that you can't complain about. Oh, like always, wait until the end. "Toy Car Story"=Genius.

I've been thinking how to break up my tomorrow. I don't feeling like writing my screenplay now and my shift starts at 4:30 ends at 9:30(that's a weird one) I'll have time to work on it before and after.

Good for me.

I'm having a crisis week where I feel like quitting and/or dying. Of course, I have one of these every month and quickly get over it. Give me a week.

I'm going to try to get some sleep. If not, I'll go watch "The Storm and The Eye" because I haven't seen those in a while.

This sleep thing never helps though.  

Call me an Improv writer: I never know what happens I write I see what happens. This is not a good way to write a screenplay where you must know your beginning and your ending. Right now I have a nice little draft that will see several edits before December 15th. I like how it ends... but...

Cliché 1: Ends in Vegas
Cliché 2: Rooftop fight (with real sabres! Kind of)
Cliché 3: Girl in trouble (kind of)

Taking a page from the Elizabeth chapter of my life, the girlfriend doesn't end the story on the best of terms. I might even get to throw in that emo claddagh ring scene I wrote a while back.

Tomorrow? Poli Sci and I might work out. Of course this is going to be balanced with my heading to Tims to try those new breakfast sandwiches. I haven't had a good cup of Tims coffee in a while.

Tonight? A Mark Led Sunday Shift. Ed closed. The rain was bad enough it kept people away and I learnt once again I'm really good at my job*. Whew, for a second there I was starting to worry.

That has to be a line I took from something. I know it sounds like a normal speech, but it has that certain connotation that I can't do.

Mark has an ambitious Fanfic AU envisioned. He'll needs Staci and me for backup. In a nutshell: Stargate + Battlestar + Justice League.

My mind is buzzing for things we can do. Mark already has Superman and the entire Kyptonian race being ancients. Which works.

I don't think I can "script doctor" my own things. That's simply called a rewrite.

(sigh)

but "script doctoring" sounds so cool! Whedon did it for Speed!

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So if a screenplay is for a movie does that mean a teleplay is for Tv?

Cleric, that's a yes.

Oh, look at me answering my own questions. I find it hard to write a screenplay after seeing such a finely written Aaron Sorkin teleplay of "Nevada Day pt. 1" for "Studio 60 on the Sunset Strip." I feel ashamed to even attempt to write anything after such a masterful screenplay.

I can watch Carl Binder, Martin Gero or Robert Cooper and still keep writing. Not like Stargate episodes are poorly written: they simply do not have the witty dialogue I'd like to write(well, maybe the Sheppard and O'Neill lines) Cooper wrote Sateda though...which is a good one

Sheppard: I don't know, Killin' a bunch of Wraith always seems like a good idea to me

Or

Sheppard: It seems Ronan doesn't want to leave

McKay: Well too bad. You tell that ungrateful example of unevolved humanity that we came all this way to rescue him, so he'd better get off his a...

(Cuts to Sheppard on Radio)

Sheppard: McKay says he's very hurt you won't come with us.

Always thanks to the fine people at Gateworld.net for their transcripts so I can quote exactly.

Anything else? Nope. Omar and I are paring up later this week to tackle that Stats assignment. This time we won't wait until 20 minutes before the class. How does Wednesday sound? I think it sounds like an "umph" sound because you're working over that hump.

I'm probably going to lose the window with Dani. However, I learnt that MSN names aren't the be all /end all of data. It's worse then blog skimming. You have to read months and months worth of blogs to get any reliable picture of a person.

Or maybe I just say that to make myself seem more complicated.

Yes. She still gets a colour. I think you can't take it away once it has been assigned unless they are fictional characters. Whenever I think Dani: I think Green

I'm done. Saint is up for a run tomorrow no matter what! Even if I have to run through her neighborhood screaming.

*Well, that woman regarding buying "The Sentinel" seems sort of fake on the phone, but I'll even take fake gratitude. She looks kinda fake when she came in too...

-Cleric

I thought I covered this with myself: I can't go to sleep after 7 or I'll be late for Poli Sci. Dad got me up at 11:50(order from mum over the phone) and I panicked and balled-out to make the 12:26 bus. At least I don't miss much: The lectures are verbatim from the book.

I'll probably log in a couple hours for Stats. That second assignment problem looks like it's chapter 9 related. I'll verify with Omar tonight and see if he's on the same trail.

Usually, anything with Forensic infront of it makes me happy(Forensic Anthro, Forensic Psychology...even Forensic Dentistry) but when it's a forensic audit of the entire KSA organization that's kind of depressing. That means all their services are down until they sort it out. Weight Room and Coffee Shop.

So that idea of weight training today has gone out the window. Meaning my run with Saint will be easier. I did want to get some light weights in before then.

I've been meaning to donate some money and knowing me the only organization worth giving money to is the SPCA. 15 a month from my credit card isn't that bad. I just have to lay back on the music for a while. I'll talk to mum and see if she's willing to pitch in a dollar here and there. I know she gets those mailing labels, but I doubt she actually sends money for them. They simply come.

I also got a cool little wrist band and I've been meaning to replace the Tsunami once since it snapped.

Anymore wonderful ideas for ten screenplay?

No, even at it's fullest I'm not looking at a 120 page thing. This might be a 10 minute fan film on youtube type deal. Not like I could get a production crew together.

just a thought.

Stayed up and watched Atlantis last night...Storm, The Eye and Before I Sleep...

I hate before I sleep, but since I was going to watch it on youtube...I should watch my DVDs.

Heroes is on tonight. Work Tomorrow.

Did I mention Dani's birthday is today? Being in November? Oooer. I remember how much I like November...oh, 10 days and counting.

Done and done.

-Cleric 

I'll think of a title as we go.

Oh, Mozilla Foxfire 2 has a built in spell checker. When I was on here early I thought it was a 20six.co thing until I posted something on the 7SaHk board. This means I don't have to sound like an idiot when I don't have access to Word! Nice!

Speaking of Clans: On Pyro's request I rented the new Need for Speed Game. It's pretty much a continuation of Most Wanted(same characters and some NPCs crossover) but with a scoring system similar to Underground 2 which Pyro and I enjoyed more than Most Wanted in some parts. I think it's a little cheesy that all the cops radio chatter is exactly the same as it was in Most Wanted. I guess they have to save a couple bucks here and there. The best feature is the addition of a Wingman racer that will either Block, Scout or Drift for you. So far the blocker is the most useful. I keep having my scout knocking over obstacles on top of me. I haven't gotten far enough for a drifter yep. Oh, the soundtrack is better than Most Wanted because it has more than just rap.  The game lets you set up a crew and I called mine 7SaHk simply because that is my current crew.

"Power United-Ownage Instinct"

I had four beers last night. Saint owes me some money. She insists that she owes me money. I'm in no hurry to collect.

Tomorrow? Poli Sci then Omar and I will cap that Stats assignment. I'll probably peer edit my partner's screenplay tomorrow night too.

Work was work. I'm glad I'm not the only one that feels like quitting someday. Mark and Matt are like that most of the time.

Oh, Mark and I swapped DVD shows. His Babylon 5 for my Stargate Atlantis. Of course, he has 2 seasons to catch up on...I have...5 and like 5 movies. Ooooer.

 Anything else?

Nope.

Well, a guy in my clan keeps calling me Old Skool because apparently I talk like "an old skool" type of person. Yeah, that's not the first time I was told that(oh Britany) I'm hoping it might stick. Or not. Still, I'm close to actually having a decent nickname.

-Cleric 

My original Halo avatar was greyCleric. Once I started joining clans it had to be shortened to accommodate a clan tag. (insert tag here)Cleric soon became the norm. There was a time where I went as just Cleric. I spent a week as "Sheppard" just because I wanted to goof off in the noob servers without a 7SaHk tag. Anyway, ever since I joined up with 7SaHk my name has been too long and I couldn't use the separating ~. it simply would not fit. However, 7SaHk~Grey fits just fine. Right now, I'm in the middle: The Grey Area. I can go back to be the wise spiritual healing Cleric later on*.

Right now I'm in the middle and that's where I'll stay.

Stats was stats. We took up the assignment after the Estimation lecture. My math was sound but I kept picking the wrong t statistic for the required question. I've sorted that all out and I'll begin final prep for the 16th exam on Monday. I've even made a full size formula sheet on Grid Paper that can fold to highlight certain chapters. I had to include a Bell Curve template because I can't draw the things no matter how hard I try. Thanks to Wikipedia and Google I found one of suitable sized that I traced onto some grid paper. (sigh)

Something about grid paper. It makes me feel more organized.

Work tomorrow and I have a feeling I promised Matt D. I'd start early for some reason. I'll have to double check that in the morning. I have a cellphone training module to do before Britany kills me. Jeremy shaved and got a haircut. I almost didn't recognized him when I returned "Down in the Valley" before I left for class. He said he was going to but I just didn't expect such a different.

Still writing the screenplay. I have some more ideas to improve the visual quality of the screenplay overall.

I hung out with Omar and Sohota early tonight. We got a bite to eat, watched Supernatural: Nothing too heavy. Honestly I needed something after number crunching for 3 days.

Anything else?

Nope.

-Cleric

*I'm still Cleric in the Grey Area.