Pfff. 50 by June was a nearsighted goal that made CoH more important than my real life.

I'll hit 50 when I'm good and ready. Blizz will probably be my only 50 blaster since I've fallen in love with the defender class, especially Debuff classes like Trick Archery and Dark. Everyone wants an Emp Def and yes, the buffs are unmatched but Emp defs don't have the same flavour as Dark or TA. Staci likes her emp defs though. We teamed up, pushed her to 21 and did the cape/2nd costume slot mish.

We had coffee before her shift yesterday. The term coffee is a loose one, I had a green tea lemonade and she had a java chip frap. we're both pretty big Starbucks whores and know it. I try not to have an iced Americano after I've had a cup or two of Kicking Horse 454. It's good, but it keeps you up for hours.

While I'm not usually a fan of warmer weather, certain people make the weather worth it. That's all I'm going to say.

Of course, I'm the one that gets turned on by college girls in pea coats and scarves in November. So I'm messed up. No, I just like November.

the title? I work today. Yeah, I'll stop using Elvis Costello songs as titles. They stopped making sense four entries ago.

I'm trying to work my current state of mind into a high school aged CoH fanfic. Why I feel like channeling a 16 year old girl I have no idea, but it helps break away from cops and movie geeks. Oh and stating your character at 16 stops them from being hit on.

I just had to phone Saint up. A movie coming out in the fall "In the Valley of Elah" has James Franco and Johnathan Tucker from the Black Donnelles in it. She was happy. I'll see it for Charlize Theron.

I might restart the SED project. The large suppressor like device that attaches to the end of a weapon and makes all projectiles that exit the barrel "Holy" used to be called the "Holy Roller." I think I might rename it the "Bible Thumper" 

Done? Done.

-Cleric.  

No title. I'll think of something that doesn't suck as we go along.

You know, just thinking about it...I have a feeling I'm probably not the only guy in this country with a fascination with Staci. 

No. Nothing more to say about it, just getting it out there.

See how I changed it? It's a fascination now. I think that is a positive connotation too.  

I've also been downgraded. It used to be I was “stupid.” Now? I'm just a “fucking idiot.”  I’m very close to becoming a “fucking moron.”  

I can't say the same thing about Dani. She no longer fascinates me and she never really did. Dani is just there.

The Lt. is back in country and I hope he stays for more than 2 weeks this time. He is slightly insulted that I believed he would fire me over a "minor*" incident last week. I'm a worrier. I worry. It's a family thing.  

*I wouldn't call it minor at the time, but once we figured it out it became minor.

Ok. Either I have to stop playing CoH or start writing about CoH to maintain what is left of my **"Writing Ability."** I was going to say "talent" but come on, me? Talent? Ha.

Either way, current writing themes are pretty much the same ones: Longing, Guilt and Duty. Add in high school aged angst and we have a party!  

 I've also figured out the layering required to wear a SPANDX bodysuit without boiling to death. "Under Armor" is everyone's friend.

Anything else? No. I just need to meet new people to obsess over.

-Cleric  

Yeah, I added the movies application on facebook. I do get paid to talk about movies so ranting them on facebook seems alright.

A couple days ago Staci came up to the games room....

*pause*

She did what? Yeah, I know. I've had dreams that started like way, but it didn't end that way. Considering I wasn't answering my phone and everyone knows where I live, she just hopped on over. We called Mark over and he brought his GHII Controller. I crushed him in a Freebird Medium Pro Faceoff.

Now I wasn't upset that Staci decided to visit because I wasn't picking up my phone

Of course, if I didn't want to be disturbed that day, maybe I would have held it against her. Saint says it's a sign Staci can tolerate me after what happened. Saint says I should be happy with the outcome.  

I guess I didn't mention this, but a random black and white kitten walked into our house a couple days ago. Long story short, it stayed for a couple days, hung out with my cats then left. Only to come back again. We think he's coming here to get out of his own house for a while. If he comes back again, we're taking him to the Humane Society. Saint wanted to name him, but I refused to if he wasn't our cat. Somehow though, the name Charlie Oreo stuck. Charlie, because mum thought it reminded her of another cat she knew and Oreo...for obvious reasons.

(sigh) Staci came up with "Music" to match her black and white cat "Lyric."

At least the HSK now has a small kitten named Charlie Oreo in my CoH fiction world.  

HSK: lvl 31
Blizzard Blaster: lvl 47

Anything else? 

Nope.

Just checking in.

-Cleric  

Blizz reached 50 just after 11am Sunday morning after an almost 12 hour grind after work on Sunday. Scarlet Sun was on the team for the final 5 or so hours. I did not see him reach 50. I was glad he came along. He promised to help Blizz get to 50 when I last talk to him as the HSK.

"Mydnight."(the period is part of the name) is based on Nick Copelin and is now level 8. I still haven't thought of a name or a new look for the "Melissa" based Peacebringer. All I know she will rely on the Dwarf form and Nick will rely on the Nova form, which is fun as hell by the way. I'm still working on the complete back-story. Nick former Nictus is called "Pollux" and Melissa's Kheldian is known as "Castor." Google it.

I text messaged Mark and Staci as soon as I hit 50. So soon infact I missed the window saying I had unlocked the epic classes.

Since we all had dinner when Mark hit 50, plans were made to do the same thing. Of course, with Mark it was just the three of at Bp. Everyone kept saying “We’re celebrating the fact *cleric* got to 50 in CoH.” It sounded alright when you typed it, but saying it aloud made it sound lame.

 This time it was Staci, Mark, Mike, Brett, Britany and Shawna. Angela ended up joining because we had it at the downtown restaurant she works at as she got off shift. Again, tradition says we order desert and put 5-0 Birthday candles on it. The only way to do this is to tell the staff it is a 50th Birthday. Mark got his at 11pm in an almost empty restaurant, no one sang. Of course, the one they bring me to...they ordered me to stand on a chair while they announced to the entire establishment I was turning 50. I cheerfully announced I "looked good for my age" and they sang...something along the lines of a boot camp running cadence "I don't know what we've been told, today someone is getting old". Several camera phones have now immortalized the moment. Wait for it on Youtube.

At least I dressed well. Khakis, oxford blue shirt with a lightweight black sweater. I'm finally preppy enough to pull the look off!

We would have been out for longer, but Staci opens tomorrow at 9 It's a shift leader open and not the CSR 10:30 morning shift which I'd call "an opening shift." The Lt. is training her for most of it though.

Staci did say she wasn't going to become a shift leader so she could go back to school in the fall. I guess she changed her mind. That'll put a cramp into "current plans" unless I pursue that ECOMMs job*. Being a 911 operator has to be less stressful than working with the Firm. You can hang up on stupid calls with ECOMMs. Like the people who want the cops to come to call a tow truck because a car in is their driveway or that old lady that wants tampons. True stories from my paramedic buddies.

 Look for M. Python in the computer, it makes life so much easier.

*Ok, where I work isn't the only cramp in "current plans." I'm just an idiot and a glutton for punishment. I think it would work well, she a sadist and I'm a masochist. Well, I'm not really a true masochist. Jury is out on Staci...she own a cat O’ ninetails and has a love for leather…

A little pain in ones life keeps it interesting. If you were comfortable all the time you wouldn't do anything. Come to think of it, I don't do anything anyway....Hmmmm.

 A little lyric to sum it up:

"It's only just a crush it'll go away
 It's just the others it'll go away
 Or maybe this is danger and you just don't know
 You pray it all away but it continues to grow"

"She Wants Revenge" isn't the type of band I'd usually listen to, but someone reason, it's really resonating now.  

If you noticed in the breakdown for the party, Saint wasn't there...She didn't want to come because she wasn't feeling well and Britany ended up coming.

(Sigh) All this drama. I should write something good from it. Something good? Can I even do that? I should talk to John Hogdman about it.  

Done and Done.

-Cleric    

Yesterday will probably go down in the books as my worst short shift ever. On paper it didn't seem so bad. A neat 6:30-11:30 with arguably my two favourite people at The Firm, Staci and The Lt.(in that order.) but I just got hammered with stupid and pointless questions. That and I'm still sorting through my "issues" with Staci. Not "issues" per say because that sounds negative, but it's something I'm sorting through.

By the way, when someone tells you "*cleric* you're my rock. Thank You." you do no respond with "I Know." I think you're suppose to respond with "You're welcome" or "No Worries." "I love you" seems a little inappropriate, but whenever that flashes in my mind "I know" comes out.

Damn you Han Solo! 

Working All Three Weekend shifts for the past 2 weeks have been my fault. I keep picking up shifts. I don't know who I'm picking shifts up for anymore, I just pick them up. No one works three weekend shifts. Not the FullTimers, the Shift Leaders or the Management. Somehow I do. Of course I usually get the entire week off...I think that should balance.

 I work in roughly an hour and I haven't slept. Coffee and willpower to the rescue. Right now it's all coffee. The willpower doesn't kick in until I'm actually at work. I gain Mez Resistance while I'm working and some Res to Def Debuff. Staci would have found that hil-ar-ious.

 I can feel it. Something concrete and solid writing wise is going to start. Nothing CoH related...something "original" and wonderful. Keep your eyes peeled. Actually don't...because peeled eyes sound gross.

Since Staci told me to be happy yesterday, I'm going to try today. As a focal point:

Things that Make me Happy:

1. Grande Long Shot Americanos*
2. Scarves
3. Wool Coats of varying length
4. Dual Wielded SMGs
5. Trick Arrow Defenders
6. Short Haired Brunettes with "nice" eyes. This has been changed from "green" eyes since eyes don't have to be green to be wonderful. Just look at Nicole deBoer and *mumbles*...Staci.
7. 100+ transactions and 10%+ Combo Percentage. Till Horse Rawr!
8. Rubber bands. 

I'm going to change into my work stuff. I tried to get someone to cover my shift this morning until I realized the only person who would say "yes" is me. I just can't say no....Staci(come on, I worked with her for the entire night, who else am I going to talk to!?) told me I should look after myself before I look after the store. It's not my job. I've paid my dues twice over and shouldn't feel obligated to take shifts. While that may be true, I can't see myself not taking 90% of the shifts tossed at me. You know how many shifts I've had covered in my "career"? 4.

1. AiA with Elizabeth(Technically a good reason)
2. Deathly Ill with a Crime Exam, I didn't want to close that night.
3. Deathly Ill and on 3 types of drugs. No one wanted me in.
4. Deathly Ill with 4 boxes of Kleenex. Sent me home with the promise I be ready to rock the next day.

 I'm not complaining.

Just realize this all you worky people: I have an assload of markers I can call in at any given time. I won't, just so you know I have them.

Done and Done.

Staci isn't working today. Don't ask my why I know that.

 -Cleric

*4 and Long isn't a football thing, it's how I like my Americanos dammit! 

CoH Stats:

HSK: 39
Ran with one of my regular teams made up of mainly of the SG Paragon Rouges. Juliette: Ice/En Blaster, V amp: Sonic/En Blaster and Cow-Belle: Warshade, mostly Dwarf. If she spots a Q, she'll say "*blank* has a fever, the cure is more cow-belle." Before our 5th was One Freeman, a very Halflife looking Ice/Storm Controller. He's not on so much any more.

The Epic Pair
Mydnight: 10
Ran a few teams. Nothing special.

Celestar: 11
Same. Action with the epics isn't anything exciting.  

Both toons have their elemental shields. Bring on the Hollows.

Daeva Diva(scrapper): 6
Daeva Diva(brute): 6

I restarted the Daeva Diva, a Dark/Dark scrapper. I also recreated The Daeva Diva as a villain, a Dark/Dark Brute. Both are at lvl 6.  

I've also pulled both of the Epic's backstories. I have to figure out how to have each story contain the complete idea without getting wordy. Now it has the basics.

No, I have nothing else to say. Sunday wasn't so bad at work.

Done. I keep thinking I haven't seen Staci since Saturday and the biggest gap I've had in a while.

Don't over think it. 

-Cleric  

(sigh) Let me put one out there before I go to work. Using process of elimination, it should be me and the Lt. for the close. Everyone else is up in the air due to Brit's birthday tonight. I'm still debating whether or not to go. I'm sure I'll get a phone call sometime after my shift...

Of course, tomorrow Mike is having a thing. Saint says I should skip Brit's birthday and only go to Mike's. Either way, not in the biggest social mood this week. I did hang out with Staci, Brett and Mark on Tuesday. We played Marvel Ultimate Alliance for a few hours. I played as Spidey, Hawkeye(TA Def forever!) and Blade. I should have stuck with Spidey.

No, I'm not going to talk about that picture of Dani on facebook with a grande Americano. No, I'm not going to talk about one of Staci's proposed new hairstyles is based on Natalie Portman. Maybe I'll talk about that Italian author Melissa Panarello. Maybe not. I still don't know her full story....or if she actually exists...

Still, on the topic of nothing: I'm an idiot. Only an idiot would pursue someone who doesn't or can't love them back. Dani is still up in the air. I probably could have done something if I didn't panic. Lesson learned, but I little late. I could say that I'll learn from my mistake, but it is too late. Dani could have been the one. I know that sounds weird considering I've only met a handful of women in my life, but I'm willing to say it. At least to myself and people who won't listen. I'm still trying to figure out if I believe it myself.

Get the nerd out:

HSK: 40 and "this" close to Rain of Arrows. I've decided to only go for Power Build up in the mastery pool leaving room for aim and acrobatics. I don't really need temp invul and I can't really think of a reason why she would be temp invul.
Epics: Mydnight at 12 and now in the Sabres. Celestar at 13.
Blizz: Still 50

I'm still working on my controller build. I have a feeling it's going to be ice/storm. It's also going to be the HSK's mom. That's sound dirty. Staci commented on a pic of Celestar staying she could be the HSKs older sister. I think it's the hair.

Anything else? No. Staci just called. She wants to go out for coffee.

Don't over...nevermind.

-Cleric