I don't know why type of fallout will come from what happened Tuesday night...all I know is.

I really hate Staci sometimes and I should keep my phone on me(and ON) at all times...unless I'm inclass. The real trick is turning it back on when I leave class...so just incase..say Staci(For example) calls me claiming the Lt has an extra Rollings ticket, I'm not bed...

I came home from class wiped anyway and I wouldn't have been much fun. She claims I missed a hoot and I probably did. I even missed seeing the Lt considering he's been on vacation for two weeks and counting.

I have a feeling Staci will fall in with that group of people I love so much that I hate them for making me feel like crap most of the time.

Halloween was Halloween and luckily for me(I suppose) more people recognize a Blues Brother over The Question. Of course, that random girl who stopped me in the Lounge had a boyfriend(they all do) who's coworkers had no idea who he was...despite having "Elwood" written on his knuckles.

Class was class. I came home, promptly bought our last copy of GHIII from Mark and proceeded to teach Pyro the art of rockage. My GH skills improves at least 3 fold while dressed as a Blues Brother.

Halo III was festive with a Zombie Only Playlists on creative map titles like Tree Rot, Zomibar and BrainFreeze.

I went to a CoH party for a couple hours. Not as much fun as the Artful Dodgers mind you, but a hoot none the less. If an admin had shown up, a lot of people would have been banned!

Well, it's November. I have a paper due Tuesday morning on God knows what...Thursday is probably the 3rd and final creative project before Mass edits....and I work Friday at 1:30...1:30! Who's taking the day off because that is simply not a shift I receive naturally!?

Yeah...I think it's about time to get back on those pharmaceuticals again. I can't go through my weeks like this. I'm seeing an academic councilor on Wednesday. I'll see if he can point me in the direction of a school psychological councilor.

I'm spending my free time putting together an "infinite crisis" like story arc for 6 of my CoH characters...including 3+ of my CoV characters which I don't really like. I have to find a proper "voice" for my Amy Acker WWII scrapper, my teenage rent-a-sidekick(somewhere between perfectionist and the girl next door...think Natalie Portman) and the... Co-worker inspired ice cold former cop DB Scrapper...so deadly...so dead...so quick...working on it.  My infinite crisis will probably have something to do with the Peacebringers going missing...

Anything else? nope. I'll try to hate myself less in the morning.

No titles...ever.  

-Cleric 

I should start stating my Staci Status in these entries. Today waffled around but the final verdict is a hate for the 3rd. We'll see what the 4th brings.

I do have a hero complex. I have to "save" people without saving myself. Some people just can't be saved. Including me. Especially me.

I'll chill out Sunday. Maybe I'll be happy. Maybe I won't be. If I can make it to Wednesday, I'll be fine. Of course, Monday will be the biggest stumbling block.  

I'm trying to write something were a couple in full winter gear share a couple of coffees and a chicken salad sandwich. My standard winter gear vs. Staci's purple accessories with grey tweed longcoat. It's not about Staci, but it might be...I guess that might be what comes out for Thursday...which will end with cold screamless fights that no one can actually admit. I have to reclassify the emotionally unstable vs. the emotionally absent, distant and stupid...errr...maybe not the last one.

It is Dani's birthday this week. Just checking. I almost forgot. Thanks facebook....I think.

I hope the Kwat Psychology Personnel can give me drugs. Lots and lots of stupid drugs.

Anything else? No...no...no...no...no...no...no...well...no...

-Cleric

Ps. Fuck.  

Staci Status? Neutral leaning towards slight annoyance. Probable forecast for the morning? Neutral with slight positive overtones. This will mark a .345% positive shift. The weeks forecast calls for more positive shifts with a definite downfall heading into the weekend. Bring your umbrellas folks.

Corrections Paper due on Thursday. I can take a day to breathe and actually research the motherfucker. So paper in the morning with writing in the afternoon. I can swing that. I can swing anything.

This means I can get that psychological help on Wednesday. Well...at least direction to campus located psychological help. It better be included with my outrageous fees.

I've been trying to write the full Freedom Franny backstory. Of course I can't get past "Robots? Monsters? Nazis? Robot Monster Nazis? Always ready!" and something about Patriotic Leather Armor not being to breathe and being sweaty. I think the term I'm looking for is "glistening." See how hard it is to write about Amy Acker based characters? I'm always trying to picture them nekkid or something.

"129lbs super enhanced finely conditioned combat ready muscle packed onto a 5’8 frame. One Part Bionic Woman (Michelle Ryan civvies of course) One Part Captain American (minus the shield) One Part Amy Acker (Oooooooh Yeah)."

See why I shouldn't be a writer? Still trying to get my BA Dual Minor in Crim and Creative writing. Can't I get a Crim Major with a Minor in Creative writing? Do they even do Major/Minors instead of dual minors? I should ask.

Oh. One of the free gifts offered through facebook is a Starbucks-like cup. I sent it to Dani saying Happy (early) Birthday Grande Americano with room! She told me she couldn't believe I remembered her drink. I claimed it was easy because it’s exactly what I get. Americano Buddies!

Done? Done. I'm not overthinking that. Are you?

Oh. The Lt is back today! May we all rejoice at the return of our mighty leader!

USS Torando ? Akira class? With...*gasp* A Holographic Interface Computer based on Amy Acker?! Sign me up! Of course you need to replace your yella wearing security people with Green Wearing Groundpounding Marines! Ooorawr! They love the smell of green! I actually have a spec sheet for a RP Star Trek Marine.

-Cleric

(sigh) Paper prep later. I got four frantic calls from Shawn after someone told him that Corrections paper was 6-8 pages single spaced. No one asks for single space at any academic level. It gives profs more room to write stuff. Of course, I can't read half of what the profs write and what I can read I don't care about it.

I don't want to talk about my academic councilor session, that's because I didn't have one. Yeah, I called to cancel, but they said I wasn't scheduled...ok. Sure. Rescheduled for the 21st. I hope. I guess I should have dealt with the counseling people instead of admissions who were given the duty of scheduling academic counseling...ok.

Did I just have to fill out a questionnaire asking if I would date a guy? Really? I read the description, ticked "no", "heterosexual" and "male" and claimed my reasons for not wanting to date the guy was "I'm not gay, sorry to disappoint." Oh, crunch time for the stats people...running about asking people to do things. 

"Hey you! Sign this form, drink this juice and fill out this questionnaire."

"Hey You! Sign this form, look through this magazine and fill out this questionnaire."

"Hey You! Sign this form, click these buttons on the computer and fill out this questionnaire."

Of course, I always read and sign that release form just incase I'm being roped in to a second Milgram experiment or Stanford Prison Experiment. Who knew that Zimbardo fella who hosted those lame Psych 12 movies created one of the most unethical experiments known to science. One day I want to call up the head of the research project and complain the fact I had to drink a juice box and fill out a form "hurt" me...of course, that's against Froc's Research Karma. Always participate so others will participate in your study when the time comes. (sigh)

Still working on Freedom Franny's backstory. Another player commented about how fun a Golden Age Hero is...and yeah, Franny is a Golden Age Hero(from the 40s) but I'm planning to play her a little darker than the average Golden Age Hero.

Dani and I watched House yesterday...you know...not in the same room, but I do feel a little better knowing she's watching too and probably smiling at all the same parts I'm smiling at. I should ask her to watch the season finale then go out for dinner...and coffee...

That would be nice. Scarves...

Anything else?

Oh. Staci Status: Neutral

That's it.

-Cleric  

If I try to write too much it will become a how much I hate myself/how much I suck type of entry.

I just want to say the highlight of my week is a tie between watching House on Tuesday and sitting down today with a full French press of coffee and a pumpkin pie.  

You can tell how bad of a week this has been.

And by the way, Calling anything you write "an experimental piece" means:

A) It really sucks
B) No one will get it

Just a note.

I work tomorrow night and Sunday Midshift. No, I don't think I get time and a half for the stat. At least(and I hope) the Lt is working this weekend. I need to feel better about how I do my job after...no, I won't even say it.

Staci Status: Neutral bordering on slight annoyance.  Don't expect a positive shift. I think I've finally righted myself of that wrong of so many years ago(well...2). Who knew a depression is perfect for disengaging that "meaningless" crush you have on an obviously uninterested coworker. Now if she grows her hair out and dyes it blonde, I'll be set. She won't, so it'll have to be an emotional thing. Go me.

I wanted to get help on Monday, but that's a holiday. (sigh)

So it's officially Christmas. Starbucks has switched over. I do get a little jaded when Christmas comes this early. I mean, in my grade 12 year I started Christmas in late September and run until the break. Of course it was a set up. I used to think the Farmer's Daughter was a trusted ally, but when she sells you out to one of three OmniEvils, you tend to lose your trust.

Omni Evils:

A) Grade 9 and Grade 11 English teacher who is probably evil incarnate who decided one day to teach English. The man does not age.
B) Law 1107 Prof who is probably evil incarnate who decided to teach law. She will never stop...even after breaking bones in the parking lot...she taught a course.
C) The Beast which is the enforcer of the two. It can be hurt and possibly killed. Shotgun, sword and Elephant rifle suggested.

Also, I started my Christmas shopping on December 18th last year...so I don't need all that time.

Anything else?  

 No.

-Cleric  

Possible positive shift on the current Staci Status. I think it's neutral leaning towards positive. I do want to have coffee with her though, of course that's not going to come up.

Also, I don't know how to take this, but IMDB has called a Dead Like Me straight to video movie WITHOUT Mandy Patinkin and Laura Harris. Even more ironic, while they replaced Rube with a new Reaper, they recasted Daisy Adair...Sarah Winter will be stepping in as the Gone with the Wind ingénue(ok, not an ingénue…but she tries)...which weirds me out because Sarah Winter was in 24 with Laura Harris. So what, Laura Harris is tied up with...Woman's Murder Club(yeah, I watched that a couple days ago, garbage...I guess I'm not in the demographic, but Laura Harris was in it) and you can't tell a DLM story without Daisy, but you can tell it without Rube?!

Oh, don't cry Dead Like Me. I'm sorry I yelled at you. You're right. I should wait to see if before I make snap judgments. They have Mason, Roxy, Delores, Crystal and the Lass'...so it shouldn't be that bad.....*glances at pictures* Wait a minute...they guy replacing Rube was Desmond on Lost. DESMOND ON LOST! DESMOND ON LOST! *gets up and stomps about* Oh fucking hell, no wonder I'm depressed with shit like this going on in the background. Great...now all I'll hear is "Put the gun down brother."

Sheesh.

Violence will ensue!

I know where you film! I'm a fucking local with connections in the industry! I'll get the Lynn Canyon Wraith and some Kull Warriors...and as many Fake Atlantis P90s I can get my hands on... and we'll come and get you!

...I have the sudden urge to tell Elizabeth then cry about it..No..Staci first(so she can warn her dad) and if it comes to it, Elizabeth.

Be careful "Dead Like Me."....if you screw this last hurrah up, it'll be more like "Dead TO ME"...The universe is cocking the Fuck with me gun. I swear it!

*reads DLM Facebook wall...* WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT'S FILMED IN MONTREAL? ARGH....Now I can't ensure violence will ensue!

Oh man...you writers better not botch this one...you are our only hope!

...Montreal? Really? That's not Seattle....That's not even Vancouver pretending to be Seattle.

I should go find that Dead Zone episode with Nicole deBoer and Laura Harris in it to make myself feel better....

Oh...Saint....Before you start insulting Nicole deBoer...just make sure you mean Nicole deBoer and not Nora Zehetner when you say "she has a pig nose..."

Wow...and here I thought this will be an entry dealing with all my inner demons....Meh.

-Cleric

I still say the Lt. and Jonathan Coulton could be related. If I could freely post pictures of both men I would. It's not just in the similar about of facial hair and glasses, but mannerisms, voice modulation and the seeming easy going mentality. Of course, I don't actually know how easy going JoCo is off stage(still pretty mello). Probably more easy going than John Mayer...and maybe not as easy going as Elvis Costello.

Be careful putting the writers on strike on the news. They're writers who will take anything and everything then forge a witty comment.

I was going to write a really cool entry about the new Loneliest Girl, but then I actually started talking to the new Loneliest Girl and things fell through. The old Loneliest Girl just give me the jibbles these days.

Of course, I can't have TWO Cary Brothers songs for one person. Blue Eyes works better anyway.

I'm never amazed at how much fun Staci has with her camera.

 If I'm up in the next couple hours, I'll probably spend the Stat off watching foreign movies like "Day Watch" and "Paris, je t'amie." To stick it to all those no subtitles people, I'll watch them with as many subtitles as I can stick in. Heck, I'll watch them without subtitles. No idea what's going on, but still awesome.

Tuesday will suck. I'll probably pick up "The Watchmen" to start my decent into awesome graphic novels. I need constant escapism these days. I will also try to get some help on Tuesday. We all need help these days, especially all the Loneliest Blue Eyed Girls out there.

Um. Staci Status? I'm going to safely say for the first time this week: Positive. That's it.

We'll leave it at that.


-Cleric

Maybe something will come of this week. Probably just an awesome graphic novel.  

A moment ago I had nothing to write about, but after visiting Natalieportman.com this morning I have something to talk about. Omg, she was Lola from "Run Lola Run" for Halloween this year(errr, in 2001)? That's so fucking awesome. I wonder what she was this year.

Of course, I haven't seen "Run Lola Run." But I know Franka Potente from the Bourne series was in it and it heavily influenced the pilot of Alias AND will be featured in a German course in Kwantlen next semester exploring German culture through film.

Movie geek ahoy! Too bad I can't take that film course without at least one German course....

Awww. Natalie Portman's dog Charlie just died. That's so sad!  

...No. I almost don't believe I stayed up most of Sunday night keeping Staci "awake" for her Inventory shift Monday night...which ended up being canceled when the power went out(The Firm and my house are on the same grid) I guess she'll be back in this morning. I wouldn't mind doing an inventory shift, but The Lt told me I wouldn't get those as long as I go to class...I don't feel that bad. Mark didn't get his first one until last year and he's been with the Firm for a while. I still can't classify Staci. Trying just leads to Zed Scores and crying...crying because I hate fucking Zed scores...

Blackouts aren't good. Especially 10 minutes before the end of "Heroes."

It might not sound like it, but I'm still depressed. I'm heading on to campus early today to "get some help." The reason I put it into quotes is because I have no idea what this help will actually be, whether it's on campus therapy, a referral for therapy or a referral for drugs. I know the value of good SSRIs, but I still hate em'....but feeling numb when you feel this bad is alright.

 I've probably said that before. I need some new material besides being a loser, lonely girls, coffee and guns. Those, however, are the Cleric constants. Recently, I've been exploring metahuman relationships.

 I'm done. I have to get ready for class...then survive the day.

-Cleric