Can?...Can we really call that a Photographic Pornographic memory? Come on, you can spot an actress just base on her lai......nevermind. You can barely call what I look at porn anyway...and this line of thought will stop.

            Well, I've stopped fading away but I spent three days “meditating” (opposite end of “praying”...) on the porcelain alter due to a salad that had once been one of my favourite things to eat. It might be a franchise, but even Saint said during her BP Days that each place will do things differently, if not outright wrong. At least you can't screw up a tower of onion rings shared with Staci. You can't screw up a tower of onion rings period.

            I should thank Ashley. I was unaware of the Friday Night Firm Iron Man thing  that about six of us are going to. Six according go the Lt when I dropped in to pay my phone bill and get mum One Missed Call for her class...I was working Friday until Ashley swapped for some reason. Pfff. Some reason. You don't need a reason to not want to work on a Saturday.

            Mum wishes to have me at four shifts a week is granted since Matt is not wanting anymore(Surprise Surprise.) I still don't know if I'm upset with him first taking my last Monday shift then giving it to Britany (then having Mark be the one of tell me...). Needless to say, I'm never taking a shift from him or asking him to take one. Brett and his assorted company(I think it's Mike, Greg and Jackie, but there could be more) are heading over the pond to explore Europe for a while. So with those two factors, I'll be prime to pick up more hours.

Painted most of my walker today. Meaning currently painted I have a 2 squad platoon with a lascannon in the HQ, An armored fist unit, a tank and a small squad of stormtroopers. You can form a unit with as Sarge and three+ troopers. I still have to paint the rest of them. I say most of the walker because it's pretty hard to paint the pilot as he's all surrounded by the armor, but I did managed to kit bash up a Vox Unit for it using bits from the left over Cadian unit. I'll see if I have enough Tank Vox units to make the whip a little longer.

Oh, what I have painted is enough to play a game by the way. But you know Brother Mark, always wanting to move things up to the epic scale.

Fully primed I have enough to field another two tanks(Can only have three) a fire support team for the Command HQ, another three Squads(one with a mortar team and a missile launcher team for the Armored fist) That'll make a pretty awesome little army. One Whole Platoon of 50 men....I think 50 men are 5 of Mark's troop choice while it only forms one of mine.

My God. I am the cannon fodder!

At least I get the tanks. Mmmmmmmmmm, Tanks.

My one problem is the lasguns as I tend to shun laser based technology for projectiles...so I have to covet the fire support team made up a pair of heavy bolters and an autocannon....and if that damned walker autocannon wasn't pewter I would have strapped it on....Mmmm, shell casings....Caseless Ammo is anti capitalist! Wait...where did I hear that?

House was back on Monday and it was awesome. I still haven't "talked" to Dani about it and I probably won't. I'm just throwing it out there.  

Oh. Pyro turned 18 on Monday. Dear God. Our Man Child/Ogre Brother is growing up! He asked what he could do at 18...he thought cigarettes were on the list, but they're not. It's just porn and 18a/R rated movies. Oh and voting. Which isn't as fun as the first two.

You can get your own video rental account too! Wooo...wait, don't...that'll make my shift harder.

 By the way, short distance hanging yourself is possible. It's just not the quickest way in the world to die.

According to the official definition, yes it is a neck "fetish" since the neck is not considered vital in the reproductive process. It's still not a "fetish" like whips, latex and...Rubber parties? I think that's a term Staci has thrown around. That could have been at that Gay pub I went to once. I thanked my lucky stars I wasn't there on rubber night...whatever that is...

Wait, Wiki (because I haven't been to school in a while, I have to have "intelligent conversation" and debates with myself) says that a fetish is based on inanimate and sexless objects now having a sexual context causing arousal. Another type of sexual fetish is known as Partialism where a certain body part takes more sexual focus than the owner of the said part.

So no...it's not a fetish. I like the neck, but I also like the girl. For example:

I like Amy Acker's neck...but I also like Amy Acker.

            Speaking of that, apparently you can get a shirt that says "Amy Acker ate my Hamster." It has no purpose, but it is awesome. This same site also offers the hilarious injoke-ish "Irish Panda" shirt...both of which I must purchase.  

According to The Joss, the script for "Hole in the World" was passed to Amy Acker's neck...I mean Amy Acker...at Alyson Hannigan and Alexis Denisof's wedding...which is almost a sick joke. I would have thought the commentary for that episode would be enlightening and brilliant, but since it was taped after the wrap party Joss, Alexis and Amy were really quiet and quite possibly hung-over....they just wanted to watch how awesome the episode was. I don't need a commentary to tell me that!  

Done? Done...Thank God. I thought I'd never shut up.

Ok wait, two more random things:

1. Girls names that end in “I” exist solely for the purpose of parents to write the name and dot the “I’s” with smiley faces.

2. I should head butt more as a fighting option, since I do have a giant forehead…how can I miss?

-Cleric 

GI Jpe  Live Action Movie=Pretty darn silly looking...

Sienna Miller in GI Joe Live Action movie=2 pistols, glasses + brunette...really, I don't even know or care who The Baroness is...but that's math I can get behind.

Work is awful. Of all the issues I have, abandonment issues aren't usually among them, until now. The Lt has officially quit and this is his last week...everyone else is talking about jumping ship. Some have and some are just talk. As much as I cherish Brother Mark, he's in the "talk" column. Staci is not in the "talk" column, but she's not in the "stay" column either...

Trust me, that gets complicated. So, it might be me and the Sarge left in June with whatever rag tag band of thugs we can hire.

 I wrote a longer entry yesterday and it didn't get submitted...so I won't try to smash it out again.

Just a note, Natalie Porman in "Mars Attacks" is "Bad" Natalie Portman as it is a pre-1999 movie. It must have been her third film after Leon and Heat.

Speaking of movies, I put in an order at work for Cube(How do I NOT own that? Nicole deBoer and David Hewlett back in the day) and Four Rooms(Post Mr. Orange Tim Roth pairing up with Tarantino and other directors in four awesome shorts)

Work is work. Real person work. "Monday to Friday-9 to 5"...though in Firm terms, that works out....Friday to Wednesday-11ish to 7ish. Still that's almost 4 weeks full time employee's worth in disposable income for me. Do you know how many Imperial Guard units I can buy with that? 

So, The Lt. has two shifts left...Close tonight and Sunday mid. Todd is out. Ashley has called two weeks. Matt and Lucas have claimed two weeks. Staci is out in 100 Mile for the weekend not worrying about work and Brother Mark is Brother Mark. He said he would go job hunting on Thursday, but he spent most of the day with Staci and myself. It's not that I don't say he'll live up to his word, I just have the urge to remind him that some people will still be around when everyone else leaves...so don't start half assing now.

Yeah, that it. I'm too tired.

-Cleric 

Change is inevitable. This is the way of things. Today was the Lt's last shift and everyone else is falling in line behind him. The Sarge has twelve interviews set up for Tuesday. Twelve! We've never had twelve people working here let alone in the interview phase.

Matt is gone in Two. Lucas is gone in two. Mark is gone in early June(only as a favour to the Sarge) and Staci will probably go sooner.

Todd and Ashley are already gone. I don't know about Spenny. He wasn't really here to begin with, so the jury is out.  

Everyone else will be gone. It's my job to stay. I have to step up.

I have a feeling I'm actually losing my mind. Not that "Oh My Gawd! *Cleric* is going wonky" type of crazy...but fall asleep only to wake up in the bathtub crazy. Crawling in a closet for no reason crazy. Mumbling about things that don't make sense kinda crazy. Well, I do that last thing regardless.

I get a terrible feeling when I turn around in the store and I'm the only one there. Sure, they're probably in the back dealing with something else, but for that one moment I am alone. I hate it.

I've never had abandonment issues before. I've had plenty of other issues, but this is new.

It's hard to step up in a job when you hate yourself. It's hard to do alot of things when you hate yourself. I can put it behind me for several hours while working.

It proves I'm not doing well mentally. I'm down to one coffee a day(Long Iced Americano with no water) and that'll last until my break. I've drank a litre of orange juice every day I've worked. Mum and Pyro have something that is similar to that floored me for three weeks in February and I have no intention of getting sick when I'm scheduled for 36 hours of Mid shifts. I have odd cravings for things like raw broccoli (I hate it raw) or nuts. I came home today from work and finished off a family size bag of mixed carrots and broccoli.

I'll stop whining. I guess I have a few things to look forward to.

1. Lots of disposable income.
-All the 40k and think-geek stuff my hard earned blood money can buy!

2. The Dark Knight in July
-It would only be better if Heath was still with us and they attached a Watchmen teaser to it.

3. The DollHouse
-The Joss' new show in the fall with some Whedonverse heavy hitters returning to the fold including the ever lovable Amy Acker as some type of doctor. 10 points for the hot nerds! But here's hoping The Joss Shall Smote the Fox, and all with be laid to Burnination!

and the slight inkling that maybe, just maybe...I'll get to see Staci outside of a working relationship. It’s just an inkling. Of course, no matter if she works for The Firm or not, she's still emotionally absent. There's been a glimmer every now and then. Of course, I don't know if it's a glimmer on her part or wishful thinking from me...but she did call me up to hang out for a while at about one in the morning during her last inventory...but maybe, she wanted some company. That, I'm good at.

The Lt and I both agree. The new Death Cab album is back to their indie basics.  

Alright. I have to sleep now. I'm up in a few hours...no one else is since it's a Stat...Meaning I'll be twice as busy and no Stat pay for me either...I don't even care to ask why anymore.  

I'll admit, Thingeek.com has some pretty cool stuff and I'd be more willing to order stuff from them if the shipping/handling and brokerage fees for a T shirt and some caffeinated body wash weren't at least the same price as said bodywash and shirt.

The shirt is a little big, but knowing this household's laundry methods, it won't be for too long. I have yet to try the body wash, but I will shortly. I classic thinkgeek fashion the side of the bottle instructs

"Place small amount onto hand, washcloth or monkey. Rub on skin. Let it tingle. Rise. Repeat, if desired by monkey." 

Speaking of monkeys. Brother Mark and I saw Speed Racer last night. In some error, we'd gotten the wrong starting time. Thinking it was suppose to start at 7:35 we arrive at 7:10 only to discover it started at 7:05. Well, I don't know what we were in a hurry for, we arrive just as the previews were starting to an empty theater. We each got our own row.

The movie was fun. You have to be willing to deal with crazy visuals and random comic inserts with a monkey and small child when a film is based on very campy anime. Man, if I wasn't such a fan of the Wachowski's and those Extreme G Games, I wouldn't have understood the film. Oh and they’re still credited as the Wachowski Brothers, so the fact Larry might have become Laura is still up to debate….but the one about him leaving his wife for a professional dominatrix?...I think that’s a little more solid. Any anyway, I haven’t seen pictures of the Wachowski Brothers(They don’t like to do press junkets) so I wouldn’t know what Larry would like in the first place before he became Laura.

Final verdict? Too much Chim Chim and Spridle, not enough Christina Ricci with short hair.

Mmm, Christina Ricci. I don't know what it is...she's good looking all and...but maybe it has something to do with her being the original "Goth" girl for my generation: Wednesday Adams. Lt stills says she has the most round head in Hollywood.

So, day 2 of 2 days off. I'll probably quickly shower up with the new caffeinated bodywash, get a haircut. Maybe some lunch. Then I'll see. CoX i12 is out and both Franny and HSK have gotten into Cimeroa, the new Roman Zone. I'm also working on a timeline for the "Clericverse" to get a betting bearing on the time....Maybe some 40k.

Done and done.  

It was tough being a movie geek today. Sure, I was probably almost two hours early and in a moment of work inspired Stress

Cleaning I took on the entire back room to maintain the Lt's final legacy to us.

Of course, his final legacy to me was the bottle of chocolate yogurt that was his chocolate milk during one of the many inventories he did.

You know, when you pour something like that out the first few seconds are clear. I assumed it was just full with water and sitting on the counter. That thought quickly turned to absolute horror as solids appeared from a liquid bottle.

The pile of dishes that had been festering in the sink for months were forfeit. I threw them out wholesale. If someone wanted to keep them, they should have cleaned them. That's a lesson I mush impart upon the four new people we're getting soon.

You have 7 days to clean out the small wardrobe of clothes back there. They will be donated to the Salvation Army after that.

I hate teenagers. It scales up properly too. I hate packs of teenagers even more. No You can't rent 18A moves. No I can't recommend the most gory horror movie that isn't 18A. No I can't "Let you go this time."

I just promise to use all my powers to make your life as difficult as possible for the next ten minutes.

A trio of teenagers can be just as bad. Especially when they rotate between laughing with you then at you then with you then at you then with you and then at you....My "Crying at Coyote Ugly Story" isn't THAT funny.

No more sugar filled fraps for fifteen year old girls.

Oh, I don't discriminate. I hate a fair number of fully grown human beings. No we don't have a Christian section. No, I won't suggest that to management. We can't even acknowledge Christmas, so a Christian section would be stretching it. It's not my fault I know only two vaguely Christian films....and it's certainly not my fault that not everything Roman has nothing to do with religion!

They're the Romans! They had tons of religions you ignorant prude! Also...

I have to maintain a 90% Fee retention. So you'll pay that 7 dollars for that game late your brat kid forget to tell you about or you get out.

Please pick the second one. If you are reasonable, I will be reasonable.

Oh, I hate most children as well...No you can't get an Xbox game for the single 10 dollar bill you have in your wallet. I don't care if you probably got a DS game for 10 dollars. You can't now. 

My God, Staci faked a line 2 to get me out of that. 

...and I'm going to hate that kid's parents by proxy simply because they weren't there to teach him commerce. I am not a baby sitter.  

....Yes work sucks. Yes I know you're all leaving because it sucks. Can you just not say that infront of me? Because I'm still here...Oh, and for the record, most of you still work here and that doesn't mean you can slack off.

I know every fan boy in a moment of boredom has thought about "Leon II." The idea of a fully grown and fantastic Natalie Portman slinging dual compensated Berettas is a good one.  Heck, Saint and I used to hold us breath waiting. But true "Leon"(Not The Professional) know that you can't have Matilda grow up and kill people. She has to grow up normal because that's what Leon wanted for her. It would completely ruin his sacrifice for her! And yes, a 12 year old Natalie Portman peering down the scope of an AR series rifle is attractive in that...Gun Pedophile Type of way.

I'll go watch V for Vendetta later and feel better about myself. Or maybe Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium. Something about the rainbow longsleeves underneath a...yeah, I've said that before.

Work Tomorrow, Monday and Tuesday. Wednesday is just for me and the Thursday helps the cousin's move.  

I'm just tired of whining. I told Staci that I can't do this job without her, but she claimed that I do fine and that we rarely if even work together....It wasn't what I intended...but it was something.  

Done whining....

-Cleric